Depression from out of nowhere

[aLifeWorthLiving]

I've been feeling really great the past 6 months but I got hit with a wave of deep sadness today and it's wrapped around me like a Venus fly trap. I tried every DBT trick I know but I'm sitting here on the couch, feeling like I don't want to do anything.

This is the first time I've lived on my own in over 35 years and I find that having these feelings now feels heavier then when I lived with someone. Of course the type of relationships I used have I'd loose myself and get all my validation from the other person which never panned out very well. I have been learning to love myself, as corner as that sounds), over this past year in a way I never thought possible and I'm grateful for that. At the same time I feel frustrated at always ending up back in this hole.

I see a psychotherapist every two weeks and I was in two online DBT groups which I got a lot out of - I just finished the program so I no longer go which is what brought me here looking for any online (over Zoom) groups that I might be able to attend. If there's one happening tonight somewhere I'd love to go.

[AnxiousSilver]

First and foremost, welcome to this group.

Second, I notice that you live in Canada.

I live in the Chicagoland area, but BOTH places deal with a lot of grey sad skies.

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Some people are triggered by SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder), because of the constant gray skies and lack of sunlight.

It bothers me. If you have SAD, then try to look into SAD lamps, or even SAD lightbulbs.

Try to stay in as much light as possible.

Either way.. I hope that what I wrote helps (even if it's a little bit) and I hope that you feel better soon.

[aLifeWorthLiving in reply to AnxiousSilver]

It's great advice and in fact it's been grey out for a few days now so that might be having an impact. Thank you and it's good to be part of the group.

[designguy]

You might check out ACT Therapy, I found it helpful for learning to investigate my emotions, welcome all of them and be able to get in touch with them and process them. It made a lot of sense to me when I learned that it's our resistance to them that causes our pain and dilemma.

[aLifeWorthLiving]

thank you designguy, this is very helpful