depression- hopeless- need to be loved

[Loly99]

hi… i know many people in this platform might have already mentioned depression and anxiety..

I am a student on a placement.. in this past month i have been feeling really low.. i dont know why… i work 9-5 , i like my job.. but i dont jniw what is wrong with me:. Sometimes I cry without any reason.. i take citalopram for almost a year now and cant see an improvment..

i used to like walking so much , talking to myself, but lately i have been bored of it, lost interest.

I have social anxiety.. not making eye contact, feeling stared at, calling myself ugly although some strangers complemented my beauty.:

I dont know.. i want a boyfriend cez that way i feel worth and loved …

I dont know what is wrong with me.

I know the stuff that I have typed mught not make sense.. but i am suffering alone.

Any advice will be appreciated

[Call_me_anything]

Sometimes what we type doesn't make sense but it helps to get some things off our chest.

- Also socially anxious 😅

[Loly99 in reply to Call_me_anything]

thank u so much. Yes indeed😂❤️

[Krn210]

Nothing is wrong with you. Have you ever tried talk therapy? Or discussing with your doctor that you feel your meds aren’t helping? Do you read or journal for fun?

[Loly99 in reply to Krn210]

i tried talking therapies before but didnt seem to help.🥲

[Krn210 in reply to Loly99]

I feel that. I really do. I have felt the same. I forced myself to try again, and have been going for 5 or so weeks consistently now and it’s been helping. I have also been doing CBT therapy and that has helped a lot. Maybe you could try again?

[Loly99 in reply to Krn210]

maybe i will . Thank you❤️

[designguy]

It sounds like you are suffering from low-self-esteem and low-self-worth for whatever reason and would really benefit from learning how to heal that part of yourself and learn to validate yourself and accept yourself. The most important relationship we have as humans is the one with ourselves which affects our relationships with others. There is a lot of good info on youtube about this as well as books and programs.

[Loly99 in reply to designguy]

thank you very much. I will try. I am really struggling on a daily basis.. just feel so empty and I do get so jelous when I see girls prettier than me.

[Agora1 in reply to Loly99]

Loly, try to remember that beauty fades in time but who you are and what you've

become throughout your life is what people will remember.

The saying "beauty is only skin deep" is true because unless you love yourself and

are comfortable within your own skin, your eyes will reflect that sadness.

I agree with "designguy" in that where you are coming from can be a matter of low self-esteem and low self-worth. Both can be achieved by working on yourself through

Meditations (found on YouTube) We are here to help you through this journey xx

[Loly99 in reply to Agora1]

thank you very much❤️❤️

[designguy in reply to Loly99]

You're welcome. You might also see about changing your medication since it doesn't seem to be helping you so talk to your prescriber and see if they can help you switch to something else that may help you. Also, don't be afraid to find a different med provider if you don't feel like the person you are working with is knowledgeable or helpful for you. If you can you might try to find a functional medicine psych med practitioner. Mine is very informed and takes a holistic approach to meds.

[Loly99 in reply to designguy]

thank you soo much. Will do❤️❤️

[designguy in reply to Loly99]

You're welcome, hope a change helps you.