Everyone around me is moving forward with their lives and leaving me behind but can't get mine together. I feel like the universe is trying to tell me that I'm right on the verge of a breakthrough for something I'm working on, but I feel this IMMENSE pressure from the world to just give up on it already. Be a normal adult, who cares if I struggle with chronic conditions or bpd?
It's too much. I just want something to work out and change for the better, but NOTHING will. I'm so tired of watching other people get what I want as I stay where I am despite working 24/7 to try and get my life together. WHEN WILL IT FINALLY BE ENOUGH!?!
I want to self harm. It's the only thing that releases this awful pressure, I know it's not good, but nothing good is happening in my life so why not?
and I swear this freaking keyboard is possessed