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[depressedteenagegirl]

I just joined the site, ive been on other depression and anxiety support group forums but ive not find great comfort from them yet. Its nice to write to have someone care about my life even if its just a stranger on the internet. Im 19 I dont go to school anymore I found myself unable to motivate or even have the energy to do anything, I have a job but for the first time ever im actually contemplating on quitting. I use to really like my job as it gave me an excuse to leave the house which I rarely do but as ive progressively gotten worse I have grown to resent my obligation to it. I literally do nothing beyond work, I dont have friends really as ive extremely isolated myself for most of my teenage years. The only time I do things is on the weekends with my boyfriend, I have him, im thankful for him. But I feel bad that I sometimes plague him with my illness like im his responsibility since I have nothing else in my life but him right now. Im also suicidal which I could imagine is hard on him. He has a pretty normal life no mental problems cant relate even a little bit to my struggle and I sort of resent him for it. Like he is the lucky one, being able to have friends and go to college, live with a roommate. All the things I know I'm too sick for. Not to mention my anxiety is only getting worse and I think I use it to feed my pity project. I dislike life I wish I didn't. I wish I had ambitions. I wish I wanted a future.

[just_keep_swimming]

hi , glad you are here . What helped for me is thinking what is causing my anxiety and depression and trying to working on those things . As for the job have you started resented it because of increased anxiety or due to something else ?

[Thankfulforhelp22]

Is there anyone who can help you or that you can talk to? Maybe a suicide or mental health hotline? Please don't give up. Mental struggles will keep you from seeing how wonderful you are. Try to stick with your job if you can.

Sending prayers and hoping you feel better. Keep fighting for yourself.

[Hidden]

Hello, welcome! I've only been e member here for less than 2 weeks but have already had some good communication with people. I too have been on other sites and, like everything else in life, some are good and some really suck. So far, this seems to be a very informative site. Also, there seems to be some good resource information that you may be able to tap into with a bit of research. I know what I'm about to say may/may not resonate at this moment but something as simple as reaching out to folks on sites, like this, is a step towards the direction of information on mental health. When I was your age I knew something was wrong. I knew I felt and thought differently than my friends. I knew there was a black cloud over my head but didn't/couldn't talk to anyone about it. There weren't resources available, and what was available was not suitable to help a teenager who thought about death often. This may not make sense to you right now but believe it or not you're a step ahead (and closer to feeling better) because you recognize the need to speak about how you feel and are actively talking about how you feel. This is a HUGE, HUGE step. If you feel suicidal it's vital you speak to someone, in person, about your thoughts. I know it's easier said than done but believe me when I say that I wish I had these opportunities and resources when I was your age. Your mind will continue to work hard in continuing to make you believe all those negative things you mentioned in your post every time you look in the mirror. But it's possible to retrain your brain to help you see the true person you are. It's possible through some hard work to release that person being held down. I'm sure you've already been through a lot but don't give up the fight for your life before you start to live it. There are many stories with unhappy endings from people, like me, who unfortunately didn't have the opportunity or gumption to release their true selves. Go for it!!... life is yours for the taking!!

[designguy]

Hello and welcome to the site I hope you find it helpful for you here. Is it possible for you to find a therapist to get some support from, it sounds like it would be really helpful for you. It takes courage initially to do it but it definitely is worth it. You might also contact your local NAMI Chapter for a therapist and a support group. Pease take care of yourself and take the step to get help.