1256545 thoughts in my head

[Against_the_current]

Mom sent me to take out the rubbish. There was sth she cooked but we couldn't eat. I felt so guilty, so guilty wasting food, thought damn im guilty, thought damn i eat rubbish and collapse, thought fi dad was here this wouldn't happen, though thtis guy is looking at me and making gagging sounds. Thought i stay and zone out and he leads his girlfriend on the other side of the road because i'm disgusting and crazy (zooning out). Thought the music from this bar is triggering. Thought what if i messed mom sis relationship by coming. Thought how can mom think sis is faking being ill. The music. I shouldn't write it but i have to, i can't keep it

[just_keep_swimming]

slow your thoughts, you are thinking about to much at once and it can be overwhelming . Take it one at a time and breath slowly . You are not disgusting or crazy take those words and burn them .Reframe your thinking to be more positive and just because you have these negative thoughts that does not make them true .

[Against_the_current in reply to just_keep_swimming]

Thanks

[just_keep_swimming in reply to Against_the_current]

no problem 😊

[Hidden]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Do you notice a pattern to them? Because I do -- two patterns, actually. 1. worrying about things that are beyond your control and 2. worrying about how others view you. This is in no way a criticism. I do it too. In fact, lots of people do. It's exhausting. One of the things I've learned over the years is that people are most concerned with themselves. I've learned that people normally don't go around thinking about others.



[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

That's a good observation. Brought some clarity. Thanks

[Hidden in reply to Against_the_current]

you're welcome 🙂