Trust issues

[Nothingnoted]

Everytime someone is looking at me. im automatically suspicious automatically curling my fist always in defense mode. Not relaxed and at peace anymore. Went to the grocery store waiting for my sister some person whocworked there was talking into a speaker when they saw me andwent back in the store started texting Nami i was getting stressed out. Started slapping my face hard yesterday and wanted to do it today

[southernbelle87]

I feel the same all the time. I know people can’t see my mental illness but it still feels like I’m under a microscope being accused of something. I’m sorry you had this struggle today just know I know how you feel. 💚💫

[Nothingnoted in reply to southernbelle87]

Thank you

[Johncasaras]

Thanks for your feedback!!Sorry for this issue but I'm dealing with a situation but still able to work and run a business with partners of course.But my anxiety and depression is from a strange divorce where the other half has issues now because of that I'm feeling the effects.I hope we are on the same page here

[Nothingnoted in reply to Johncasaras]

You are welcome. Just wanted to say "Im here for you"

[Sylvain-]

Exact same symptoms here. Including slapping my face. The doctors say I project my own feelings onto other people. Despite knowing that, in any social situation I feel like everyone is better than me, more successful, more decontracted, more beautiful, and overall happier.

And I feel like if they notice me, or even worst if I make a mistake, they will laugh at me, or at least they will feel disgusted by me as if I was some kind of monstrosity. Like if all I failed at leaved scars on my face. At this point, I no longer meet anyone. And I haven't left home for years, except if I have no other choice (e.g. to see my therapist).

[Nothingnoted in reply to Sylvain-]

Sylvain "Thank You" I feel exactly the same way you do. i feel bad for my sister who has compromised health issues also. The worst thing right now is I cant even help her at all is because i have a diabetic foot ulcer on my right big toe which might be getting worse

[Sylvain- in reply to Nothingnoted]

I kindly send you all my support and understanding, Geinki.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Sylvain-]

I would like to send you the same. Have you ever heard the say " I have your back" American saying I will be supportive to you 100 percent

[Sylvain- in reply to Nothingnoted]

Thanks. Never heard of that expression, but I was pretty bad at English at school. It even was the cause of one of my first job application rejection. Hopefully, I have improved that a little bit so I can now talk to nice people

[Nothingnoted in reply to Sylvain-]

I hope you are feeling better. You speak pretty good english to me. Im glad we are friends

[Nothingnoted in reply to Sylvain-]

I like your bowl of pears

[Mrspjsmom]

It sounds like you might be in constant "Fight or flight" mode. Do you have a therapist? Are you taking any medications? Please try to not hurt yourself. You are already in pain.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Mrspjsmom]

Yes, i do

[Mrspjsmom in reply to Nothingnoted]

Be sure to talk to your therapist and your doctor. They may have some suggestions

[Nothingnoted in reply to Mrspjsmom]

Cute cat.picture. What is fight or flight

[Mrspjsmom in reply to Nothingnoted]

Neither. Just my cat Oliver. He cheers me up so I share him with the group whenever I can. He's quite a spoiled little thing. I brush him every morning. Bring snowballs inside for him to play with since he isn't allowed outside. Open the sliding door so he can enjoy the sunshine through the screen and wash the water bowl every morning. He shares the water bowl with the dog and doesn’t like it if she gets dog food crumbs in the water. But he keeps me company, makes me laugh and loves me unconditionally. Whatever I do for him is worth it.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Mrspjsmom]

Im glad you have Oliver He's cute

[Mrspjsmom in reply to Nothingnoted]

Thank you. He was a stray. One morning my daughter heard him under her front porch howling. He was only 4 or 5 months old. She called me. None of the shelters had room for him so I was supposed to be fostering him for awhile. My husband was furious that I brought him home. That was on a Wednesday. Two days later when my husband finally calmed down enough to listen to why I brought him home they met. That was Friday. On Saturday my husband had me calling our vet to make an appointment. He was ours.

[AnxiousSilver]

I don't slap my face, but here's my tried and true, whenever I'm having severe anxiety or panic in public.

My dead giveaway is that my hands will shake.

^ Like If I hold my arm out, and look at my hand it will sometimes shake, well it shakes pretty bad with severe anxiety or Panic attacks.

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So what do I do? (especially if I'm trying to pay for something and my hands are shaking with the cash) I just tell the person feeling bad for me that, "I overdid it on the caffeine today, and there's nothing to worry about".

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Sometimes, they laugh, and say, "I get like that too with caffeine"

& sometimes they'll say, "Oh thank goodness, I thought it was something worse." (which it basically was, but they don't need to know that)

*Boom* It diffuses the some of the anxiety and the guilt of what just happened. (it's one of my trick of trying to be a tad bit more normal in the heat of the moment/situation)

& I recognize that what I just wrote, probably doesn't help you much, but "hopefully" it helps anyone out there that's currently reading this.