Feeling useless and no good

[Nothingnoted]

im procrastinating on everything. I was suppose to submit claims for my out of network therapist sent me the information about a month ago. Im such an idiot i think my therapist doesnt want me as a client. i dont blame her i wouldnt want me as one . i had to cancel my therapy appointment for today and i toldher couldnt afford it. I wanted to pay her for the last two copays the last two times because i told her that i could obly afford to pay her for that yesterday. Im probably going to lose the best therapist ive had

[AnxiousSilver]

"I was suppose to submit claims for my out of network therapist sent me the information about a month ago."

It's OK, we all make mistakes, and believe me I've made my share of them. (and I did a good job of beating myself up for them as well)

[Nothingnoted in reply to AnxiousSilver]

Thank you💜

[AnxiousSilver]

" Im such an idiot"

You made a mistake, it's normal to feel down about it.

It's OK I do that a lot too.

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But deep down inside, you know that you're a good person.

[Nothingnoted in reply to AnxiousSilver]

Thank you

[AnxiousSilver]

"i think my therapist doesnt want me as a client. i dont blame her i wouldnt want me as one ."

Worry and low self-esteem ATM.

I battle this on a daily basis too, it's a big part of my Severe GAD.

Believe me, I'm not judging. I'm just trying to relate.

You're a lot more normal than you think.

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" Im probably going to lose the best therapist ive had"

If she's a good therapist, she'll probably understand.

If you need to (as a last resort) tell her that you're stressed out, and you made a mistake.

Let her know what's going on. Let her know that you still want her help. (but only do that as a last resort)

[Nothingnoted in reply to AnxiousSilver]

Thank you, what does Gad mean

[AnxiousSilver in reply to Nothingnoted]

"Thank you, what does Gad mean"

GAD = Generalized Anxiety Disorder

& If you never heard of it, it's basically constant anxiety and worry (that varies in severity) over a 6 month period or longer that interferes with your ability to function properly. (there's a lot more to it, but that's the basic definition)

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I have Severe GAD, PAs (Panic Attacks), PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) that I picked up over the past 5+ years, and Depression swings.

That in a nutshell is my mental health.

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If there's anything that's a plus to what I have, is an understanding and empathy towards others that suffer from the same.

I'm not a "health professional", but I still "try" to help others when I can, because it hurts me to see others that suffer. (especially since I still suffer from all of this)