Does anyone want to share how depression and anxiety are affecting their lives?

depression and anxiety

[Willow2022]

It’s different day to day. I’m pretty stable right now but today has been a slow decent into sadness for no solid reason. I exercised, kept busy but it still happened. I feel it now and try to imagine it as a wave: it is build, crest, and go back down. I need to ride out this wave.

[Hidden in reply to Willow2022]

Thank you for replying. Today I found this site and decided to give it a try. I also started a new job today and immediately hated it because I felt like an imposter and didn’t think I deserve it. My family is at their wits end with me and I’m losing them to this disease. You are absolutely right that it is a wave that overwhelms you. I’m trying so hard to fight this.

[Starrlight]

I used to be very deeply depressed. Always have been anxious. These days I’m ok I’m even able to be grateful except for social anxiety. It makes it hard to be around people and I’m always doubting and questioning who I am like I’m weird and not good enough. Meditating and exercise helps heal the pain most.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

thank you for replying! I wish I could find the strength to exercise. My mind is in full control. It’s like a switch that overrides what I am supposed to be doing. I’m really tired of this feeling of hopelessness. Hopefully I can see the light soon .

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

I know that feeling. I have the switch sometimes where I can’t do what I want or need. I’m lucky that I can exercise each day now but I dread seeing another human being on my walks 😬 that’s why I love winter- less people. I love you guys here but at the same time people in general scare me. 😰

[Hidden]

my family and friends try to help and tell me everything I have to live and fight for. This just makes it worse sometimes because the voice I’m my head doesn’t care. I know people can suck. But I think more people are good then bad.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

I don’t think people suck well sometimes but it’s hard to explain I just get nervous being around people …I don’t want them to see me. I feel like they will just hurt me but I’m tired of that so I’m working on being braver around people.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

That’s great that you are trying! May I ask how you became less depressed and greatful?

[ashleybakerr01]

I have MDD and severe anxiety and panic disorder. Lately I just been staying too my bed because of really bad panic attacks for no reason lately.. I feel as if I can't do anything anymore, it's taking over my life

[Hidden]

I’m sorry to hear that. But I can relate. My panic attack have been more frequent lately and that scares me. I’m not in control and now I’ve started to get angry when they happen . I’m literally pushing away my family because of this.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Hidden]

I do the same lately, and then I feel bad because my younger brother just want too spend time with me, but all I want to do is Lay in bed and be alone

[Tealribbon]

I tend to isolate because I’m concerned how I will respond to those around me. I definitely don’t want to be mean and it takes a lot of energy to hold myself together.

[Hidden]

I feel like the anger comes when people are telling me I need to try harder!!! I hear this so often and it gets me mad because in my mind I am “trying harder “ I can’t tell people who I know care every time I’m trying because that is literally all the time! And when you still are anxious and depressed you don’t want to hear it anymore.

Does this make sense to anyone???

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Hidden]

absolutely!

[Tealribbon]

ohhhh yes….it makes sense to me. I’m trying very hard to chose anything different than anxiety and depression.

[Tealribbon]

I experience shame because I can’t “ snap out of it”

[Hidden in reply to Tealribbon]

exactly!

[redrabbitniner in reply to Tealribbon]

agree!! So hard

[Hidden]

I’ve never realized until recently how much of a grip it has on me.

[redrabbitniner]

I get tired of the slog, but what choice do we have? Meds, exercise, therapy and meditation help me. Keep at it, we are in it together—on this site and in our communities!

[Hidden]

This is new to me but just reading random message has made me feel less alone.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Hidden]

it helps knowing your not alone.. It helps me

[Hidden in reply to ashleybakerr01]

thanks 😊

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Hidden]

welcome

[Hidden]

Good night to all my new friends. Tomorrow will be better!

[TurgayGul1985]

anxiety and depression is sometimes worse and sometimes even more worse, sometimes it disappears a little bit and then comes back again

[designguy]

Not trying to be a jerk or smart ass but I've used it to propel and motivate me to heal because It was too painful not to and I also knew intuitively that nothing was fundamentally wrong with me. There are so many more options and awareness available now than when I began my journey.