long days

[Derwood78]

Does anyone else just have trouble dealing with the long hours of the day? Sometimes my anxiety gets so bad all I’m waiting for is bedtime. It’s honestly miserable and I don’t understand it. I’m in a bad place so that may be why. But I just feel like the each day is overwhelming and everything feels like a huge crisis.

[2749]

I just got out of hospital today so I am scared

[Derwood78 in reply to 2749]

Out after an illness or psych stay?

[Adamj]

I can relate to how you feel and i really would rather be sleeping. Though my sleep is somessed up I sleep from like 6am to 12-1pm it’s so annoying. But I also seem to like when the suns down for some reason the sun feels to overwhelming to me at the moment but I also get mad at myself for sleeping from 6am to 12-1pm hate feeling like I wasted the day even though I don’t do anything

[Derwood78 in reply to Adamj]

It is frustrating. I’m currently waking up super early which really sucks. And I wake up with anxiety immediately. But ya what you said. The day just feels so overwhelming.

[b1b1b1 in reply to Adamj]

Glad you are still here. I don't like bright sun either. I prefer cloudy days. b1

[Adlon57]

Yes trying to get routine, but bad health, ambitious? Now retired had not worked for years, wake up in the morning, automatically thinking how long before bed😣no incentive to do anything, just survive! I really need a big change, this day to day existence is not doing me any favours mentally or physically! Is that roughly the sort of thing you mean, if so believe me a lot of people in the same boat?

[Derwood78 in reply to Adlon57]

Well yes mostly. I work 24 on 72 off and have 2 years old twins. So I’m kind of a stay at home dad since my wife works 12 hours in the ER. So mix in my debilitating depression and anxiety while being stuck in the house all day with toddlers you can imagine the stress. I should be so thankful for the situation we have but the illness prevents that and I hate it. Just so tired of it.

[Agora1]

Hi Derwood. I'd like to Welcome you to the Anxiety & Depression Forum.It takes someone to have experienced what you feel and go through to fully

understand what it's like.

Having been a former Paramedic, I also understand the demand and pressure

you are under as a Captain of EMS. Interesting that your wife works in the ER.

I've always lived and breathed the medical profession. It's funny in that I had

anxiety and even agoraphobia years before I got into the Paramedic Program.

For me, it worked the opposite in that anxiety left me in that the more I worked

in doing something I enjoyed, anxiety took a back burner. So much so that I

became a Foster Mother as well. Of course, I was fortunate in having backup

which helped immensely since I was always on the go.

Know that I did beat anxiety and am here to pass my success forward. This forum

is an amazing start for you to get the emotional support you need. Talk to us anytime

you feel a need for those who understand. . We care. xx

[Midori in reply to Agora1]

Hi Derwood,

Former nurse here (retired). Welcome to the forum!

Cheers, Midori

[Derwood78 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you for the welcome. It’s good to hear you got over the anxiety. Because it certainly feels like I’ll never beat this

[Agora1 in reply to Derwood78]

Derwood, not necessarily so...You've taken the first step forward in comingon this forum for support. Controlling Anxiety is not easy because it's become

a learned behavior. Situational issues in our life also contribute in how we are

feeling both emotionally and physically.

My life has never been easy and is still not easy. The difference is that I learned

to be in control of my brain. I no longer allow negative thoughts to take over and

lead me down a dark path.

Each and every day, I saturate my brain(one of the most powerful organs in our

body) with Meditation and Breathing. But you must also believe in what you are

telling yourself. Acceptance of what can be changed and what cannot is important

in allowing our bodies to not stress to what we have no control over.

Breathing another powerful tool that can help change the stuck pattern we are in.

Medication and Therapy can only help so far however if we stay stuck in a never ending

cycle of stress, it's not enough.

I can only relay my experience with Anxiety & Agoraphobia. We all have different issues

and react differently. None of us are failures, as long as we try to go forward.

You've achieved a high stressful position in your job as well as having a beautiful family.

I respect you. But now it's time to take care of Derwood. Finding some "me time" for

yourself. We can't continually live on the edge before it starts affecting us both

physically and mentally. We're here to support. xx

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Most weekends are like that for me. When I keep busy, it helps a lot. I do not have too much time on my hands to overthink everything like I normally do. Every now and again I get to do some things with family which helps on weekends. During the week, things are easier. I have a lot to do and do not have a lot of time to overthink.

No matter what time I go to sleep I am always up early. I am very tired this morning. But normally after some coffee I am okay.

I hope you have a good day.

[cbgrace1980]

I'm so sorry that you are going through this. Have you talked with a doctor about how you are feeling? If not, that would be a safe start.

[Derwood78 in reply to cbgrace1980]

I have, yes. I’m currently under the care of a psychiatrist. He’s put me on meds. But I still feel like I’m drowning. Thank you for the response. It’s just hard when lites everything feels terrifying.