I don't feel well

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Went to the pool. Got lost, anxious and sunburnt. Now I don't feel well. Maybe the burned is causing it but i feel so scared and have flashbacks of being ill. Got a panadol and an after sun cream but mentally im beaten up. I messaged my parents and only got more triggered. Mom isn't responding to me at all, i'm worried hse doesn't care. Like in my nightmare. I asked her for a sun oltion, hse didn't get me. Now hse wants us to visit granma on 2nd and i can't say no so gotta prepare. I'm alone and scared, beaten up by flashbacks, thinking about mom and sunburnt.

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hey- who dont get lost ..no big critically...sure scary but hey ...happens u turned it around is main thing...

normal liefe lessons..even hunters in wild arnt5 ol pro momma

u should see films of young tigers....trying to survivfe....

takes time...

prob do feel lousey with sunburn...again.. lfe liesson

ife don far worse...wont do that again...

see u werent steall old lady pocket books or cars or

stuff real parents wor4ry about

micro managers think....george only scord twide in the soccerr game sure .....ya know ...parents need some perspetive som time...

we have ...to survive in the wildernes...man a guy or gal...has to srufe and put all this soie5y stuff and stupid asside....what i need to do....and he real threats v ...oh george didnt5 use the right napkin at the wedding....get real.

good job....we all have to trim our worries....i cant be worried about the people in india....doesnt help; no matte r how well my inten5ions

just burns energy...im a worry wart5 too...but i have to be my own best coach best advocate...have to as im dealing wi56h the situa5ion

no one else is....make my decsions and not constan5ly second guess....by othe4s.....jsut like later driving a car....practice making ur decisions .....later fluid and second nature.....we all start tentaive......same as eagles leaning to fly

mamma and pappa old pros

soooooo what......

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all pilots are trainedall surgeons are trained

all secretaires and cooks are trained..

sure 00001 percent gifted....so what ....not useful

we teachers design programs that fit

that person

that person that horse

we dont....compare up or down nor....do......we........care

that persons journey is that person journey we only care

if its workingt or not

got 45 years of coahing to out argue any nimrod expert giving u a har time.....ive trained koreans terrifed .......of horses.....et.

five weeks later ...they are blowing by the cocky ameridan kids....

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fear is addressed through small steps and over training....builds confidence in 95 percent of people....do it over and over again whethe brushing my hair or walking the dog or making a sandwich for a customer at a deli or pulling weeds or .

learning curve for 98 percent of us....same as soccer or reading etc....

takes time then once hthe brain fig it out.....up goes the eagle foremerly crash landing in 5he nest.....mamma and pappa know

all just normal....

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it is true young eagles dont get scared or nervous

oh horse poop.....whoever makes up this horse manure should go jump

confidence comes with practice......don5t listen to garbage...

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ur in the perfect storm.....ones mind wants to make sense....but how can u make sense of total choas? ud say....brig...u cant...and id say...right on.....u go with the flow through the river of total choas..the white water stuff one doesnt have tme to sit and think.....u read ad just do what u hink is best......later in the smooth water......maybe ....but try not to reflect to much....everyhtintg is clear in hindsight.....

ur dealltg with what the military calls snafu

si5tua5ion normal

all screed u

ask any real world ER doc or nurse......SNAFU andFUBAR

jsut real world not acadmci perfecrion.....ha!!!!!!!!

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like academic or game soccer v real soccer games...........idealism?? HA HA HA buy some office jockey....who aint never been in real world outside their air conditionningt.....

real world is real world.......u do thebest5 u can....

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uggh nothing harder than being in the copilot seat....eatintg humble pie..........every minute of every second.......however...

ure not dining at the waldorf........ur in very very diff places....i dont know all the parrtiulars .......

humble pie i was served daily i assure u....

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Thanks for your Replies. Yeah, it's just hard to learn

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aint that the truth ....i have three closets full of humble pie....no worries.....but see ua dont pass this stuff onto folks that arent worthy..........nope.....u hang in there......u dont help; people because ur looking down ur nose at them....u help; peop;le because their in the stuff and aint running........so dont get the wrong impression....u arent being helped because ur weak or whatever...........ur someone n a burning buliding and hanging in there...................not whiningt cuz ur toast wasnt cooked with imported butter saude....ish

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did two internships of overwhelming MASH like conditions an a residency in aneshesia.......every day was scared and everdyay was humble pie............just comes with being a player an d not one of rhe in the bleachers expert know it alls...(my famliiy no reference to anyone here)...everyday.....is scared.....u hope and pray u pull it off each day........do the best u can ....

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the concept of absence of fear is somehow in our society

total nonsense...

we do what we have to despite fear...or coping with fear

or helpig each other thrhough stress (fear) ...times.....part of reasons the church and communiites evolved......;people pull totther.....not alone..bs.....fear.....is rational and normal in hard tmes ad motivates us to change it.....

its not a character flaw.....

i shuldn have fear i .....says who?

we learn to manage it and get used to it by preparing ourelvs and coping and doing funny skits when we have no food...what ur favorite rock soup; man? .....

we learn to make freinds with fear annd not flog ourselves becaus eome book says ....oh bull

so what......what do we reall need to get done to suvvive ad p;lan and cope..helping each other is historical.......why sodceity evolved......

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u.....are helping me......just have to accept that.....someday

somt theone will be in a real jam ......young and having to deal with stu way beyond what they should.....but ....doing it......why wouldnt they be scared........ull be able to relate

and say.....hey.....which way to catch the downtown bus? and ull be there for them...u time ....will come ....i assure u.......

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only ....taken me 30 years......to get to this level....lots better than the grand grand masters in european art and museums castles and the louvre.....but keeps my mind engaged and off stuff i cant control....good divesion.....like sdoodleing and cartoons....any..thig....

like listening to music..we hear and appreciate the compleiies no one else does...save people here....sure they alll get it....most people dont pck up on the stuff u do and we do.....

yep.....channeling it here.....can erase or paint over or ..all fine

da vinci woman...copy as exercise...

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see marines are never scared just me or bill

oh horse dung...they never put them in alone and without training..pure garvage and they are scared to death..

ur scared.....sounds normal ..be worked if u werent....

NORMAL>>>>>in scary situation!!!!!!!!

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u should see college students and vet students

omg rightful scared out of trheir minds...try learning real time anestesia......with 1200 horse....baby that thing gets light......tear apart the room and scopes in the joint 5that cost 65k!!!!

i roll my eyes and fume wi5th my famly that suggests

oh all u do is set some dials.....

ive done thousands of hours of ER anes5thesia an 5these smuks talk smak........ur scared shtless....wh t f do armchai4r experts know.

fear is no4rmal rat5ional

just have to learn how to cope and adress those fears.....

NOOOOOORMMMMal....

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stupid dogs dont worryintelligent ones do....same with horses

i just go slow with them and the results are so worth it....

super talent takes a little tlc just like a violin

concrete has its place dont worry but

dont soar either

violin....is soooo worth it........ish......catch ma drift?????

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dont know if it will come through ...delierately interesting and comp;l discussions for inteligent brain to munch on.....along wi5th many other subjects and various rtypes of music....complex music...not done by a box of rocks.....no commnando either......whoooooo cares.....

handels massiah discussionn bbc utube....not pushing rthe religion but many interesing lessons and words...least for me ..i get bored with...whatever..and start to overhthnk makkng toast......ah to have interesing peop;le sometimes nervous.......sooo wor5h it.....

what they create ..their potential..why harp on the present....

catch ma.......dwift????no? yes????????????ah the gifted brains...ah sooo wonderfulllll they don5t even know it.......

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jackie evanko......angel......long distance dedication from this group.....

for ur listenig pleasure .....

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long distance dedication...eeeeasy listen tunes from this site.....from all ur well wishers here.....Moon River.....ahhhh .....UTube baby....

keepin it reel real and wreell....and wheel rollin along....going with the flow......cuz u do it baby u doing it....

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caller from Britain sending u some beeeautiful music.....they all in ur corner .......ahhh the brits now....rhey have such great taste in music......sending it yur....way.........all the way.....every.....day...........and allll night............u aint alone........nooo more......

judieth Dunham- utube...the Seekers.....ahhh now.....the best of rthe best from the Brits....

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sorry- Judieth Durham...from the Seekers.....Morning Has broken...see what u think.....fab music ....Utube

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Something I do for sun burns in is to soak a tea bag in vinegar and put it in the frig to cool. Put on cotton or paper towel and put on sun burn. Works amazingly for me. It is just something I learned growing up. I hope your sunburn gets better soon.

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Thanks Faith

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Hey brig- bet ya feel pretty powerless and small and ugh as interns and life in the learning seat esp rel to senior faculty and and and....must be a horrible feeling ...

feeling like everyone can boss a perso around no one listens and no power....man brig.....that cant be easy......

so u do projecrts to help ur self esteem ? ok ...makes sense..get to be ur own boss annd sure that makes sense

hey brig why dont i teach u some stuff ...k?

sure.....go for it.....