Found a new hobby. But money and family ruined it. Plus more troubles regarding money and relationships.

[Against_the_current]

I had a 1week gym card to a really nice gym which has also group classes. I really like yoga and dancing is my new hobby. Litterary makes me feel so good. Even basic gym helped me with my headache and tension. The drastic change in my mental stability since hte last time hwen i was going insane because of the job and my anxiety f. But my card expired today and they told me that If i make a monthly card rn i don't have to pay begging tax. I don't have money and i remembered granma offered to give me because hse was happy i was hyped about it. She told me it's gonna be for my birthday and i was okay and bought a new card. Then hse messaged me it's gonna be from mom and her! This means mom doesn't want to give me a separate gift. As If she's married to grandma. And she's manipulating again. If iknew, i wouldn't buy the card. If iknew it would be my only gift.

And i was feeling unwell already. When i asw hte message i was ready to puke. Thought hwat has mom done again, why is she manipulating to give me less, does she drink too much m, or have another kid, or htinks dad will pay my everything. I HATEEEE myself for hating on dad. In htis family i never know who to trust.

And i missed yoga, missed hte post, missed to clean because htat guy i was talking to told me his brother had an accident and he needs money and snapped out at me for being heartless. I litterary did nothing and i'm overwhelmed. This money thing drove me insane before the interview and now again. I just needed someone to talk to

[Blueruth]

I don't understand why anything is ruined. Money is money right?

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

Because i will have just 1 gift and they just do what they want to without minding anyone and that's why dad left. But i guess i got greedy. Actually triggered

[Blueruth in reply to Against_the_current]

Okay but let it go. You are letting her control you. Money is money. Spend it how you want.

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

Yeah, i need my own control

[Regina48]

I'm confused. Why is it ruining your gift? It sounds like Granma told your mom how happy it made you and she wanted to be a part of that happiness.

[Against_the_current in reply to Regina48]

Because i will have just 1 gift and they just do what they want to without minding anyone and that's why dad left. But i guess i got greedy. Actually triggered

[Hidden]

I know you really wanted two gifts, but you are still getting something that will give you joy for a month. Instead of thinking I am only getting one gift think of it as I am getting a whole months' worth of something you really enjoy from mom and grandma. That is a good thing.

As for the guy whose brother had an accident, I know it hurt your feelings but sometimes when we are stressed and worried about a loved one who is hurt, we don't always stop to think about everyone else. Several years ago, I snapped at someone who asked for a favor on a day that my mom was really sick, and we were back and forth to the hospital. I felt bad that I snapped at her, but at the time I was really overwhelmed. She understood because things were really hard at the time, but we did later talk about it, and everything worked out.

I hope you really enjoy your time at the gym. I hope you had or will have a good birthday.

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

You're right