My brain is doing a hundred calculations. Overwhelmed. Stressed about sheduling my summer and going home😭

[Against_the_current]

I am scared of home but i'm scared what mom and sis are doing when i'm gone. Also roommates are on my nerves. Also lonelyness. I can have 1 appreciatship till i'm student, this means either now or next summer but i'm unsure i'm still counting as a student next summer. I called dad to ask whether i am right fully still a student next year. He said yes. And this means i can get my appreciantship next year and now stay here, then go to home, but he said I better do it now cause next year they might not pay and to start with my diplom work. I'm scared and he's telling me to work and study. I'm trying to calculate how to schedule my time. Going home some day this week, coming back at 22nd and starting work at 1st aug till 1st oct when starting university. But which day of this week to go home, better be soon cause i'm broke, but a friend wants to see me, she didn't all the time i was here and needed and now. My brain is doing a hundred calculations and i'm so stressed and i have nightmares and my roommate is being a bitch and being loud and my head hurts. And dad stressed me more when i just needed someone he was like work and study. And my friend didn't see me all those months, wants now. I don't even know which day of the week to go home. She wants to see me thursday but i don't think i can survive till then with my money and my loud roommate and this stress about going home. Also i need to go to other friend, see her and return her stuff (because she will be leaving the country) which is stressing me more. I don't even know which day of the week i will be going home. I am so stressed that i'm getting nightmares. Had a nightmare this night about visiting and arguing with mom. Previous night about visiting and not recognizing the place. I'm going insane

[blackcat64013]

Hi and thanks for your post. There is so much going on for you at this time.

I have a tip for when my brain goes into overdrive. 🥴

I try and find one or two must do things that need to be done today. I try and do them in the morning and then forget about the rest.

By repeating this process the next day and so on, at the end of 5 days, I might have done 5 of the 10 things that were once on a long to do list. This makes my life a bit easier and much less stressful.

I know this is much easier said than done, having struggled so much at various times with life stress.

Don't forget you might can talk with student support if things get to much.

Sending you a hug from Australia

🤗 🦘

[Against_the_current in reply to blackcat64013]

Thanks for being here and the advice. Unfortunately in this country we don't have student support and unfortunately i don't even know what i have to do cause i can't deside anything. But yes i need to slow down cause my brain is being fried 😖

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[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Thanks, i'm going insane worrying when to go home. Worried about my sister

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[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

I'm going insane. I paniced about my sister and whether they traumatized her and whether she wants me home so i texted her hours ago, she didn't answer, so i kept on panicing, i called her, she was talking a pathetic, i thought she's depressed and paniced, called mom and now i'm worried i bothered mom at work and mom's gonna scold sis and sis is gonna be mad at me and my panic. I also called granma and dad and they both asked me when i'm starting a job. I wish my family understood i'm mentally ill and i just need some support, not actions, nor them getting worried, investigating it, telling me to work when i'm scared to breathe. I just need reassurance. I'm panicing because i'm not there. Dad escaped, i escaped. I'm going back Tommorrow, i can't. But here it's paradite and i'm still panicing and having nightmares every single night. I'm going insane and i need someone to understand and support me