Me and my boyfriend have been dating for like almost 6 months now, and I have never been anymore happier in a relationship before. We definitely have our own little petty fights and disagreements, but we have always solved it. Because I am an over-thinker at all times, things might not be resolved in my head but he tries his best to do so. And within the first 2months of our relationship, we moved in together and he has being my family. And in the next 12 days, he will leave and I am going to be alone here. I am a very clingy person to be honest and I really don't want to be. But I will miss him like way much.
I have always wanted to stay alone, but he spoiled me. Now I can't even think about it. Today morning, I don't know why but he and I were much in love. I have started losing my sleep in the very little thought that he is going to leave in the next 2 weeks and that is keeping me awake. Which is bad, I know that. I am messing with my own peace. But, at the end of the day I am not being able to control that emotion of mine. I have fun with him everyday. There are days when the both of us are lazy af and there are also days, when he wakes me up with cute little smiles and we do everything together. Take a shower together, clean together, cook together. I have never known that kind of a love before. Just because of my earlier traumas, these days I am actually telling myself to keep no expectations as such or hopes in this, because people may change. And I shouldn't get disappointed about it. Everyone has their own individual lives to get along with it, all that we need to do is support them along their journey rather than becoming a pain in their ass.
P S : This is me reaffirming my thoughts, so that when the D day comes I don't lose myself.
I love him. And I really don't want to ruin this in any way. He taught me to love people beyond their imperfections. He has been my bestfriend, my boyfriend, my family and so much more to me in many ways, even a teacher or even a parent at times. I have cherished him at all times