sometimes

[torpe]

i look back and see all the people i love and how our relationships have changed and it saddens me deeply. with every year, i feel i become more lonely and more inward and it saddens me so much that i cannot crack my ribs open and profess my love. i used to really feel my pain, physically in my chest, a weight. i’m numb now, but not horribly so. wishing everything is easy is futile, but boy do i wish there was a pill that i could take and go back in time and redo it all. everything. run away. not brainwash myself. sometimes i just come here to let it out, not much for advice. sometimes

[Roxylox]

Ah, that resonates. I often wish I could go back in time too and undo some stuff in the past. However it is time to move on.

[Willow2022]

Sometimes I fall asleep at night hoping to wake up in a certain time in my life where it would give me a chance to change things. In deep depression, I wish I had no one around to take care of or to care about. It’s so messed up. So many people are lonely and my depression tries to convince me I would be better off alone. It’s so heavy at times.

But we can’t go back. We can work on ourselves today and hopefully find a therapist that helps us understand our minds a bit more and find comfort in being who we are today.