Struggling in Iowa

[Surfmob]

Why is every day the same old battle with not caring about my life and wanting it to be over. You put so much energy into fighting it and trying so hard to find ways to care about yourself but all that will eventually run out I fear.

[Willow2022]

Don’t give up. Find something that gives you meaning that you care about. Even it’s something as simple as taking a walk and breathing in fresh air. Paint. Sing. Volunteer. Pet your dog/cat. Anything that can bring you a feeling and not numbness. It’s a start.

[Surfmob in reply to Willow2022]

Thank you Willow. There are many things that I enjoy and can stop the thoughts in my head. I need to find more of that in my life and figure out how to be happy for who I am but it seems so hard at times. I appreciate your reply.

[Willow2022 in reply to Surfmob]

It is hard. Treatment isn’t linear. It will be up and down. There are days when I just don’t want to get out of bed but I make myself do one thing of meaning: clean a part of the house, walk my dog, listen to my kids stories and I consider it a win. Your mind tells you to sit and do nothing but that is what makes it worse. Take it day by day, minute by minute if you have to.