It's 2am. Am tired and paniced and need reassurance so bad. So alone. I need support

[Against_the_current]

I'm blaming it on being tired, overwhelmed, agoraphobic and Social phobia but i just came back from studying with an unimate. And someone important to me left me. And i'm feeling so bad. I got home finally, took a cold shower, drank some water, took meds and started to calm. Then my friend texted me If i got home and what's going on. I said this city feels so lonely and scary. And i'm scared of my family, every interaction with them makes me panic, but i'm thinking about going back home because without the important person i feel too alone and this city feels so big and scary, and i'm scared If mom gets a boyfriend and If my sister doesn't want to spend time with me anymore and play our game of cats. It's our thing. And it really helps. More than any med. And If my rabbit is okay. My crackhead friend said my sister is old and won't want to play with me and will probably get a boyfriend or a girlfriend and i was destroyed. I was just calming. I spent so much time helping her study, got triggered, agoraphobic and anxious, got late with my Acreditation table and just started to get better and she paniced me. When i'm panicing, don't tell me stuff that i don't want to hear. She doesn't know my sister. She's reliable and growing slow like me and my parents. And it's been 2 months, she was having school and probably wouldn't have time for me nor for relationships. Same with mom, work. And just 2 months. It's just anxiety, right? I got overwhelmed from exams and traveling to this "friend". How can i go home when i panic after any interaction with my family? Even If i was there, probably things would get worse. At least here im getting therapy and better than my last ones. Have an appointment next Monday, i have to make it till then and i almost soothe myself and my unimate drove me back to panic. She's just a crackhead and my mom and sis are reliable, it's been just 2 months, they were busy, and i was so anxious that If i was there i would only make them more frustrated at me. And i wouldn't be able to study. I'm struggling with planning my time because at autumn i will probably go to school and at summer idk when to visit home and when to go for work at the student appreciantice program because my time is running out and it's a good opportunity but If i start, i won't be able to go home. I feel so lonely and scared 😭

[Sueislove]

Sending hugs !❤️

[Against_the_current in reply to Sueislove]

🤗😭

[TrustYourSoul]

What can you fix or change? It's up to you to decide if Any situation in Your life is something that You can fix or change. If you can't, you MUST master the skill to accept and find peace. Breathe and let it go, like releasing a helium balloon in ths sky, and watching until it disappears. YOU are the only one in charge of your life, so you need to find courage, which is already inside of you. Nobody else will change for You. They get to be who they are, like you.

So, when something comes up that you don't care for, you say, "Can I alone fix or change this??" If the answer is NO, acknowledge this out loud to yourself, then just move on. Practice this behavior and your soul will wind up in a much better place. Practice! You must for your own mental health, peace of mind, and a healthy spirit and soul.

I hope your future posts will be You, bragging about your great success practicing "letting go", and the peace and happiness you feel.🙇‍♀️

[Against_the_current in reply to TrustYourSoul]

I really need to learn this