Struggling

[BrownEyesBlue]

I’ve been struggling lately. My healths not the best. I have relationships that are no longer beneficial to me but hard to let go of. I’m always feeling like I’m the one who’s being too harsh; I’m the one that’s keeping it up; I’m the one who’s holding a grudge (I really struggle with this one because I go back-and-forth with it: is it Holding a grudge or is it holding a boundary?)

I think part of it has to do with me always being a people pleaser. I get inside my own head and I think that maybe I could be the One that could fix everything if I would just give in to these people. I always feel like I’m doing something wrong and as the title says, I’m struggling.

I’m a little sad and depressed lately. My mind has been doing this fun thing of imagining the future. And what it will be like. Then I think back on all the things I didn’t do and should’ve done and that makes me sad. I try to live in the present as much as I can and remind myself that worrying is a waste of my time and I cannot predict the future and I cannot change the past. It’s really hard.

I feel so alone…….

[Survivor1687]

I can relate. You're not alone (((hugs))) 💜

[Bella_lee]

Hi @BrownEyesBlue I'm so sorry you've been going through this difficult time and just want to encourage you to stay strong and know that you're not alone.The reality is relationships can be up and down and sometimes we can feel inadequate to deal with the issues that occurs.

I can relate to what you said about the back and forth with regards to: is it holding a grudge or having boundaries. There is something that has helped me in regards to that which is the fact that you can't really control what others do to you but you can only control how you react. So now I just choose to walk the path of love in my relationships and let that guide my actions. Choosing to walk in love for me means loving myself and also choosing to extend that same love to the people around me.

Also try and gentle with yourself, yes you might have missed an opportunity to do something but just say to yourself if another opportunity comes you will do your best to go for it.

I'm in my 50's now and I do think of those things which I should have done in my 30's and feel a bit sad but then I actually remind myself of the things I'm doing presently that I'm really enjoying and I focus my energy towards that thought instead which really helps me.

I'm not sure how strong your faith is but something that has been of help to me in the journey of life is praying and trusting God to help me when I feel weak or going through difficult times. I also like declaring positive affirmations as I go through the day to encourage myself because I've found out that ours words are quite powerful and can really make a difference.

As I always say to my daughter and want to tell you too: Keep smiling, Keep shining, because you are wonderfully made and uniquely you.

Sending you much hugs ))).

[Hidden]

Think you’re on to something! This moment is all we have right now! Let go of the tiger! Let go & free yourself! Find that happiness you want! Bless