Fighting again

[Lookingforhope20100]

So yesterday sucked, to say the least. I woke up late and went to work that was fine and all really it was. but then I got home and my sweet little girl greeted me at the door. Then out comes my grandma, so little back story my grandma and I have had a rocky relationship since I told her I was pregnant with my daughter. we fight a lot but lately, we have been doing good we go out to eat we shop we even talk. I have anger issues like bad and I did hit her and push her one day but I felt bad and said sorry and for the last two weeks I have been on my best behavior I did what I was told I didn't start fights all was well but yesterday something must have crawled up her ass and all she wanted to do was fight with me I started nothing all I did was walk through the door and asked her "what's your problem" she didn't like that and it started the fight of I'm worthless and useless and lazy and a slut and everything else. like I know I'm worthless and useless and a bad mother I admit it but she needs to admit she has issues too and as for the lazy thing I have done more around the house than my brother has in months. for example I mowed and weeded the yard front and back I handled pee covered leaves in the back by the garage which I might add is my brother's chore to do I mean all he does is go to work and then comes home to play video games. but back to the topic at hand, I was so mad that I took a drive and ended up an hour away from home on a 1/4 tank of gas with no money to fill my tank I'm lucky I made it home. When I got home I had to borrow her card to use MY money to put gas in my car. but today is looking up I get to go to a cookout at my godfather's house where we will just hang out and forget our problems.

[Louie35]

You should never get physical with your loved ones! Best way i think is just walk away from the situation and try to slow everything down, focus on your breathing, try to remain calm and rational. You are lot useless or a bad mother, just improve each day, little by little, learn to forgive yourself and others around you!