Surrendering to Suicide for peace, not depression

[eant65]

After reviewing carefully in all aspect in life in general and not giving in to depression, I have considered my experience in my life; crime and murder, war and violence, injustice and hate, stress of paying your bills or losing your job, discrimination, and i dont want to hear that bible crap about its a sin, there is no proof of sin and the bible in my eyes, and if people do follow that, they are truly fools. When I surrender myself of final death, I feel so much inner peace without regrets, when I feel continuing to live in this world with no hatred, I feel anxiety and burden that will never go away. Does anyone feel the same way, I am not suicidal but these are the feelings I feel, I feel a complete serenity when I think of my death.

[coolkitty1934]

yeah same with me i want death but dont search for it if you are stressing over the evil in the world then check this website out: goodnewsnetwork.org/

[kenster1]

I was once told by a therapist that thinking of suicide brings a sense of calming peace to us.we always see it as our last day of pain but it`s the first for the many we leave behind.

[eant65]

Thank you everyone, i had these thoughts before, however it is different this time. When I lied down and relaxed and to know that all my worries and concerns were gone, I never felt such an inner peace. Before when I had suicidal thoughts it was based on depression and situations, this time its not. I am a single male at 56 with some health issues, who recently was laid off, but I am financially good and I have a lot of rediscovery, and probably the hardest part is being alone and listening to the media and endless Netflix. I will take this on a day by day basis, but It will always be in the back of mind. I know I have family that love me, however they are all independant and my nieces and nephews are old enough to move along. I greatly appreciate your thoughts.

[Lizzo30]

but suicide involves quite a bit of violence - it is not peaceful ?

peaceful is going on with life and all its tribulations until our time to go - which will come to us all eventually

[kenster1 in reply to Lizzo30]

inner peace was what I was referring too.

[Midori]

As I will almost certainly be facing the guy in black with the scythe in the next few years, 'cos I'm Old, I find every new dawn a bonus.

I don't fear him, he is the last certainty. My hope is that I will go gently with no pain.

I've had a life full of interest (with a 15 year problem in the middle), although I was unable to fulfil my bucket list, due to disability, I can travel with the Internet, and probably see as much as I would if I could travel.

I'm not traditionally religious, although I follow the teachings of Christ, I do not agree with what the Church has done to the teachings. So I do not go to Church.

Cheers, Midori