I'm a dog babysitter 😅

[Against_the_current]

My roommate brought her mom and her dog and when going out with her mom i look after dogo. It's actually better to be left alone in the house with a dog 😅. But mom's picking me up soon to travel to Grandma's for Easter so leaving anyway. I hate going there but what can i do - i will look at the dog and not think about the traveling

[tofler]

It’s great that you’ve been able to spend some time with a dog, they’re great companions and something really nice and positive for you to focus on 😊

[Against_the_current in reply to tofler]

Thanks. I was excited too but he turned out to be a little shy and not wanting cuddles 😅

[tofler in reply to Against_the_current]

Maybe he just needed a bit more time to get to know you?

[Against_the_current in reply to tofler]

Maybe. But still doesn't want to cuddle me

[tofler in reply to Against_the_current]

Are you back with your family for Easter weekend now?

[Against_the_current in reply to tofler]

Yes. It's really triggering. I was going to write about it but desided not to be "negative". I also wrote an instagram story when i was panicing and i feel bad i did but i needed it noted somewhere and i don't bring my journal and i needed it shared because when i panic i feel like i need help emergently. I traveled to a place that's not my home but mom's mom's. And i have a lot of childhood memories. And mom and uncle drinking and acting unadequate. Mom was really tired (i hope just tired) that even looking at her triggered me. And sis is grumpy and mean and i worry If she's depressed or traumatized. And i feel bad that i moved out. And i couldn't see the family i wanted to like aunt and coisin in law and new born nephew. At least grateful the nephew isn't crying because it would have triggered my phobia. Thank you for asking and sorry for the long answer

[tofler in reply to Against_the_current]

No worries about the long answer. I’ve noticed that it’s often a very difficult time for you when you’re back with your family and that it seems to have a big impact on your mental health. How many days are you with them for?

[Against_the_current in reply to tofler]

For real it is. 1 day. I feel bad that for 1 day im making it a big deal (tho on the outside i controlled my panic). I just can't feel comfortable and happy nowhere and i need to

[tofler in reply to Against_the_current]

I’m glad to hear that you’re only there for one day this time, especially as it has already been so difficult for you. Yes, if you had somewhere where you felt safe I bet that would make a big difference to you.

[Against_the_current in reply to tofler]

Yeah. I just got back to my accomodation and i felt so sad. I don't feel good here neither. Thank you sooo much for understanding ❤️

[tofler in reply to Against_the_current]

I’m relieved to hear that you’re back at your accommodation again now. Sorry that you’re not feeling good though. I’m around for a while if you want someone to talk to.

[Against_the_current in reply to tofler]

Thank you. I'm still in anxiety response. I'm missing sis, i want to hug her. I'm worried If she gets used to me missing and doesn't want me back. And scared If she's missing me too secretly and goes depressed because of that. And my roommate's mom's still here

[tofler in reply to Against_the_current]

How much younger is your sister than you and does she have a way that she can get in touch with you any time that she wants to? You sound like a very caring person. One of your roommates has her mom staying in your accommodation? That sounds like an unusual thing to do. Do you know how long she’s going to be there for?

[Against_the_current in reply to tofler]

Sis is 6 years and a half younger, she's 15. She can always message me on instagram. Can call me too but sometimes her curcumstances don't let her to call but she can always text. And thank you. And it's really unusual and a bit insolent. She's leaving Tommorrow i just asked in a subtile way. I was surprised i arrived and she was still here. And i needed some time alone but my roommate went out to see friends and the mom wanted me to stay with her and got really triggered by the talk and then the washing mashine incident happened

[tofler in reply to Against_the_current]

Sounds like it has been a difficult evening for you which I bet you could’ve really done without after quite a difficult weekend for you as well. Glad to hear that her mom is leaving tomorrow and that your sister can message you any time that she wants to, that’ll be good for her.

[Against_the_current in reply to tofler]

Thank you so much. Really appreciate your recognition of the hard ships i'm going through and support and wishing well

[Random_Girl]

Awwww so cute! That's great company in my opinion

[Against_the_current in reply to Random_Girl]

Thanks

[Daesin]

Out of all of the stuff you’ve written, which is voluminous, this is the first time where you’ve had any positivity. I am so happy that you have found some thing that brings you a little bit of joy. Hold tight to it… utilize that seed to start developing your coping skills. And I’m sure the dog love the attention. How wonderful. Safe travels.

[Against_the_current in reply to Daesin]

Well to be positive im grateful i don't know what voluminous is and im sure i don't want to know. Don't tell me. And i can't say stuff is positive or negative, everything has shades. And thanks just arrived back, praying mom and sis do same

[Survivor1687]

Awe 🥰 so cute 🤗

[Against_the_current in reply to Survivor1687]

Ty💕🤗

[Hidden]

Yep, I know what you mean. Just don't take the word dogsitter literally and you'll do fine. Cute dog!

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Thanks. Haha, i hope a won't cause it would bite me. 😅 And my aunt was in a house and the host told her to sit on the sofa and she sat, then the host told her there's a small dog hiding in the sofa...and she realised she found it when she sat... So im trying to be careful 😅

[Hidden in reply to Against_the_current]

Whoops!🤣