Struggling with my thoughts

[Survivor1687]

Giving up would be so much easier. But it would make this all for nothing. Why am I here? what is my purpose? and why haven't I figured it out yet by now😢

[Hb2003]

It takes time i guess 🙏 but you will find out eventually i found out with experiences

[Chicadog]

I often have the same questions about myself. I have to try & try at times to find a reason or value. I was able to volunteer at the No Kill Humane Shelter. But I found it to be too much. I wanted to adopt all of them & became very depressed! I decided to volunteer at the local food bank. It felt good to know that I was needed & appreciated. I knew my limits of how anxiety ruled me almost constantly so I started out with just a few hours a week. I started to find some joy. When I saw how thankful the people were it helped me. There were times when I would have to leave because I worried that I wasn't worthy or good enough. It was really hard to tell them that! They understood & reminded me that even a few hours, (sometimes less) it helped them. I still struggle with those issues daily wondering what my purpose is. I've been able to share this with my therapist. At times I don't believe that I have a lot to offer others. But when I'm walking around I smile & say hi to others. Some don't respond but when they do it is a nice feeling. Oftentimes the person is a bit surprised that they were even noticed. So that helps me. Please find a way to help others in any small way you can. No it's not the Aha! moment where you suddenly get why you're here. But it's a baby step. And that's what matters. 👍

[Survivor1687 in reply to Chicadog]

Thank you for your helpful advice. Yr awesome. Keep doing what you're doing. U've inspired me today. I've been searching different places considering doing some volunteer work as well. I think it absolutely would be helpful for me as well. The feeling of being able to help someone or participating in something for a good cause is exactly what I want/need. Thanks again (hugs)