Mom has a nameday and i'm calling her, it's 3pm here, it's written she's online. But she isn't picking i'm worried. Sis called me but the connection was so bad, she's out buying her a gift for her nameday. Mom's not at work today. I'm worried.
Also unimates ask about homework, i haven't even written mine. I noticed we people with ptsd bring it up, i can't help. I dissosiate. I feel like i'm a bad psychology student. I can't neither study nor help people. I'm scared and dissosiated. I want to help people, or at least react good when they share, and i'm dissosiating. My roommate's guests are blasting terrible music. Why isn't mom picking the phone?
I'm new here and I'm feeling lost and like a burden on everyone and I don't really know what to do
I can't stop feeling like this 
Lost my world and reality feeling this can't be real 
