OCD getting worse, Can't concentrate on studies even a bit and feeling depressed 😔 ☹️

[Dreamer468]

I've been seeing a new doctor for few months. I was very hopeful in the beginning. I did ketamine therapy, cognitive behavior therapy and medicines. Eventhough it showed a little good result, things are getting bad especially with my exams closing in. My OCD is getting worse day by dad. I can't even concentrate even a bit on my studies. I've had dreams to work and study abroad. If things go this way, I won't be able to do it anymore. I will get even more depressed if that happens. Don't know what to do.

[TrustYourSoul]

What are you obsessed about? What are you compulsive about?

[Dreamer468 in reply to TrustYourSoul]

I'm obsessed about cleanliness and hygiene, putting things in my room and clothes perfectly, washing hands until it is perfectly clean and the list goes on. I know I shouldn't think of making things perfect, but I couldn't help it. Next thing is I can't concentrate on anything even for a few minutes. My studies are getting bad because of this situation. I can't focus even in my daily activities without getting tensed and repeating myself.

Next thing is I'm feeling tired in my mind which makes me skip things and remain in bed all day. I've tried different activities but all of them resulted in stopping because my mind wasn't able to focus enough for it.

One of my opinion is that I want to do everything in my heart but my mind doesn't allow it or not in a condition to do so. I don't understand what I'm supposed to do😔😔

[TrustYourSoul]

How long have you had your OCD issues, and do you know the root cause?

[Dreamer468 in reply to TrustYourSoul]

More than 8 years

[TrustYourSoul]

What brought them on?

[Dreamer468 in reply to TrustYourSoul]

I don't know. Tension, loneliness, anxiety I guess

[Sasha_14]

It sounds like you are very overwhelmed. Have you tried deep breathing or guided meditations?