My Story

[SarahNikki]

My name is Sarah and I've been struggling a lot with depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation, self harm, mpgn type 1 in nephrotic syndrome. I'm tried of living for people that are not worth it. Some days I get so close to killing myself but am forced to stay alive for those I love and I hate it. Some days i wish i could get someone else to kill me so no one blames me for committing suicide. I just want others to know that others are not worth it but you are so please hang in there.

[TrustYourSoul]

I'm so sorry that at this moment, you are hurting so much. Still, remember, it is just this moment. You have other moments that feel pretty good, like the rest of us. You have to keep doing things to help Yourself.... like praying sincerely and often, or going outside and being surrounded by nature, actually Listening to the birds and not just hearing them, or doing something simple and kind for a person or animal..... and also, don't forget to Breathe.💜🙇‍♀️

[Mikam1967]

Hi there! I totally know how that feels. BIG HUGS! You are totally right. There are so many cruel and unkind people in this world that they make life not worth living. But there are those that love and care for us. One day my cutting got to far and I didn't care anymore and wanted to end my life. My sister found me on the floor and wanted me to go to the hospital, but I told her no. She did tell my parents and they took me to my doctor the next day. The hard part was that I felt I totally let my parents down. I had big lecture later from my mom. She cried and made me feel bad for it. I promised that I would never let her down again. I still have those days where I want to end my life, but now I have my kids. I don't want to disappoint them. Life can be really difficult, but we just need to find a way to hang in there like you said. I have meds, plus I say prayers and write in my journal. It helps me to let things go. I hope I helped somehow. I'll keep you in my thoughts and in my prayers. Sending tons of hugs, hope and encouragement. We can do this.

[Hidden]

I am sorry that you hurting. Life can be unfair, but it is that way for everybody. I try to focus my thought life on positive things and it definitely helps alleviate suffering. If I let myself focus on the negative my depression gets deeper and deeper. Take action and do something to get your mind off of what's troubling you and you will see it helps. Maybe try finding someone trained in this ailment to call and talk to when you are feeling overwhelmed. I forced myself to get up and go to church on Sunday instead of just laying in bed feeling down and boy am I glad I did. I was walking on sunshine when I left. You can PM me anytime if you like.

[SarahNikki]

Thanks you all means alot to get your replies full of kind words. Some days are just a little too hard

[XoxoFaith in reply to SarahNikki]

I totally understand you some days are harder than others but the only thing that keeps me pushing is my kids and parents they don’t deserve to suffer if I do something bad hope your doing better today ?

[Daveacr1959]

Hang in there! Your older self will look back at your younger self and wish you could have told yourself, you will be happy. Things that help me.. Wim Hof guided breathing exercises free on you tube. Try others if these are too intense. 30-40 minutes of daily cardio exercise to burn off steam and produce endorphins. And here is the game changer. A 5-10 cool shower rinse. With the goal of a full cold shower in 2 months. A dozen people have got back to me on here and said it’s life changing. The internet has all the information. It resets the brain and nervous system. It’s natures antidepressant and anxiety medicine. And do fun things. I need you to be ok . Maybe a dr can help too. Cmon girl ! Please we all need you to get through the rough patch.

[SarahNikki]

I was actually in the hospital for 5 days just returned today but feeling alot better and healthy