A little relief... maybe... Sometimes 🤷

[CandiceRW]

Here's my recent ongoing battle. Literally, just laid right out there. Whatever 😛

I've just started keeping notes in my phone to keep track of how I'm doing cause things are pretty out of wack in my life right now. Plus I'm switching meds. So thought it would be a good idea.

Then yesterday I went back through the notes and thought of ways to deal with each thing or stuff I'm doing that is a step in the right direction on each thing.

I guess that's what journaling is. Never thought I could do it or that it would help. But I can and it has.

A little "yay" for me. 🙌

But then I still feel the pull of all the pain, anxiety and sadness and wonder what is the point!?.

It's a vicious cycle, but I guess I'll take the small temporary relief where I can get it.

Thanks for listening, Candice

[Luna_Love143]

That's great, I started journaling a few months ago and it helps me a lot. Question have you ever heard of CBT Cognitive Behavioral Therapy? It's really simple anyone can do it. It is a type of psychotherapeutic treatment that can be done on your own or with a therapist and it helps people learn how to identify and change destructive or disturbing thought patterns that can have a negative influence on behavior or emotions. It may sound complicating but it I promise it's not in fact it's just how you described your journaling. You write down things like how your thoughts and how they lead you to feel then go back and review them and think of ways of things you could have done differently about your actions that led up to your triggers. (sorry) Google may explain it a lot more smoothly. I find it helpful and it may help you too.

[CandiceRW in reply to Luna_Love143]

Thank you for your reply and reaching out. I have been in therapy for 20 something years. And yes, it has literally saved my life sometimes. I unfortunately lost my therapist last August, right when I was diagnosed with breast cancer and my son was in the midst of a severe OCD breakdown that lasted 8 months.

And with everyone needing help right now, it was a long journey to a new one.

That is why I started keeping track of stuff. So I could remember what I wanted to share with my new therapist. I do not have a good memory (I think it's the benzos), and then I get anxious not remembering what I needed to talk about.

Then going through what I had written and seeing improvements I made on my own, really gave me strength and solice.

I start with new therapist next week. I'm very excited. I hope we click.

[Roxylox]

Well done you. I'm only a relative beginner at journLling. It can intensify the pain yes, but also teaches us how to deal with and let go of it a bit at the same time, weird. Isn't it?

Thanks for sharing CandiceRW

[designguy]

I think that's great for you to realize, it shows you that peace and progress are possible, if only temporary. Use it as a reference to remind yourself that it is possible and continue to make move forward. Remember that we can't unlearn what we have learned, we can only temporarily forget.

[Daveacr1959]

Try the Wim Hof guided breathing exercises free on you tube. Or others on there . Take a 5-10 minute cool shower or bath. With the goal of full cold in a month. Lowering the temperature every week. A dozen people have got back to me saying the cold water helps them a lot. First 2 weeks are rough but then you crave it. 40 minutes of daily cardio exercise.