Me and my problem

[Notyouraveragepotato]

Recently I have become something that I'm not, I go out to socialize and as I live somewhere where alcohol and friends that drink are easy to require, I got out to enjoy the night. I pushed away the only person close enough to me to open up and now I need to change.. I used to have control and because of my headspace I have lost that.. I put friends before my girlfriend and now I need to fix it.. I need to find myself again, she is the most amazing person, I need to be able to not spiral out of control and to enjoy who I am for me without the damaging thoughts inside my head playing a part, I'm not an alcoholic but I have nowhere to go when I feel low and want to socialize other than to the bars where my friends drink to get in touch.. I'm lost and I need help because alcohol is the devil when it is inside someone as fragile and desperate for reassurance as me

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