It's not a Wonderful Life!

[GustheGrinch]

Imagine what it would really be like if George Bailey went to jump the bridge outside of Bedford Falls. No god would listen. No Clarence would show up. No neighbors would rally to his side and raise money for the cause. His wife would curse him under her breath for being late after work. The kids would relish the opportunity to take advantage of a disengaged mother. Hell, I seriously doubt Bert and Ernie would patrol the icy roads looking for him. I really want to believe, but in my life people who owe you a favor will let your call go to voicemail.

[Hidden]

Hey, you are ruining one of my favorite movies!!!! What is it that you’re really angry and upset about? I get sick of voicemail messages too from robots. Sometimes it seems like you can’t talk to a real person anymore.

[GustheGrinch in reply to Hidden]

Mine too. It's a wonderful flick, but once Christmas has passed, I come back to reality and just can't breathe. Sorry.

[Hidden in reply to GustheGrinch]

I hear you. January is the worst month of the year. It’s all the fallout from Christmas and New Years, now you’re stuck with credit card bills and money is really tight. I used to love Christmas when I was a kid, now I’m just really starting to hate the Christmas season. Because I know January is coming up next. Maybe I should just buy you a beer or something and we can both compare how miserable our lives are!!!

[TailWags in reply to Hidden]

I used to love Christmas until a couple years ago. I had always heard how some people have such a bad time with the holidays and i couldnt understand why. Then covid happened. Dad died. The family couldnt get together. There was no singing at mass. Mom got very sick with covid too but survived. She wasnt the same though. She was physically active and in the church choir before. She isnt anymore. She is weaker, more ailments and has some dementia. And she misses her husband of 65 years every day. They were a fabulous match. Each others true loves, the loves of their lives. Now I understand why some people dont like holidays.

[GustheGrinch in reply to TailWags]

I am so sorry to hear of it TailWags. I mean genuinely sorry. I lost my dad as a teenager and though it isn't exactly nice to say I was fine with it. I don't talk to mom anymore. I'm not even sure why. It just upsets me and makes my heart race. I sort of envy you. It sounds as if you have lost a dad that loved you. It's sad but I hope it helps. Hang in there.

[TailWags in reply to GustheGrinch]

I am fortunate to be part of a loving family. There are 6 siblings and we used to get together about monthly for birthdays and holidays. We actually like each other. I always knew my parents lived me but didnt realize the real nature of it until after dad died. It is still.hard to believe. But now I see the carefree, living life of my childhood eroding away via death , disease and aging. I really feel like eventually everything I love and loves me ends up leaving me behind. Guess that is the way it is.

[GustheGrinch in reply to TailWags]

Big families can be complicated. Mine was fifteen. I can't even remember being close to any of my siblings other than my younger brother. After he took his life I have just sort of felt like he beats me at everything. 😂 I don't feel suicidal at all. My grandsons need me to see them through. All in all it is just getting difficult to see the point of life

[GustheGrinch in reply to TailWags]

You know, TailWags, your a good egg. I'm no prophet or anything, but I judge pretty clean. I think that perhaps, like myself, you ponder a little deeper than most. Maybe that is why we are all here. Maybe we are all just a group of folks asking serious questions about life and expecting those answers to balm aching souls. Either way, your desire for fulfillment spawns legitimate to me.

[TailWags in reply to GustheGrinch]

Funny you should use the term good egg. My sister and i have been using bad egg since my niece used bad eggs to describe a particular group of residents where my mom lives. Interesting choice of words in your entries. I like when people have a vocabulary. I find it annoying when people just use the same old curse words over and over for every situation.

Thank you

[TailWags in reply to GustheGrinch]

Aching souls. Reminds me of a line from O Holy Night, the Christmas carol. The thrill of hope a weary world rejoices....

[GustheGrinch in reply to TailWags]

I'm deep down a Halloween man myself, yet oddly enough a Christmas carol rejoiced properly can bring me to tears very easily. I have been an atheist since my early twenties but I am very much fascinated by religion and the culture it hones.

[TailWags]

Yes, not real optimistic, but I think your entry was well written. You have some talent there.