Not a good day

[Buddy65]

My oldest son has depression, anxiety and PTSD. For years hes been blaming me for everything. And it's been tough.

The last 3 weeks have been the worst. Hes off his meds, hes emotionally all over the spectrum and very reckless emotionally.

This morning however was the worse. I recieved a phone call from him, of which was recorded, he was calm to start with, and by the end of his message he was screaming.

I no longer trust my son, I'm afraid to be alone with him (he beat the crap out of me once, of which landed me in the hospital and him in the institution.)

I love him more than life in himself, but I cannot take him tearing my heart out anymore.

This morning I said goodbye to him

None of this is normal

I need help, I have been brought to far down with mental abuse that I dont believe in myself anymore.

Please help

[AuntBee]

Buddy, it is his mental illness talking to you. It sounds like him being off his meds is not good. Is there anyone you could call who could help him?

[Buddy65 in reply to AuntBee]

My hands are completely tied.

[AuntBee in reply to Buddy65]

do you think he is safe at the moment?

[Buddy65 in reply to AuntBee]

No

I feel that he is self destructive and suicidal

I gave my youngest son the phone # for his dr. Hes called and there is nothing he can do.

[AuntBee in reply to Buddy65]

you can call the police and have them do a well being check on him. they may be able to get him to the ER

[Buddy65 in reply to AuntBee]

We tried that this last week.he was able to fool them

[Buddy65 in reply to AuntBee]

My son isnt the only issue here, he has beaten me up for over 10 years. I am at the end of my rope also.

[hypercat54 in reply to Buddy65]

Who else has beaten you up as well? Your youngest son? Your partner?

[Buddy65 in reply to hypercat54]

My 1st ex husband is the only other one physically and one ex boyfriend mentally.

[kenster1]

hi I am sorry to read this.being of medication is no excuse and you should phone the police and get a restraining order taken out.why don't you contact a womans refuge for advice it might offer some support in what to do.

[Buddy65 in reply to kenster1]

Thank you

However how can one get a restraining order on someone that in all due respects has only made verbal threats? He beat me up over 10 years ago in a manic episode

[kenster1 in reply to Buddy65]

restraining order are only issued through courts but you could get an interdict meaning they cant come near you.

[Buddy65 in reply to kenster1]

So how do you do that?

[kenster1 in reply to Buddy65]

the police are you in the uk.

[kenster1 in reply to kenster1]

sorry a solicitor will apply for an interdict through the courts.these can be granted quite quick from what I read.

[Buddy65 in reply to kenster1]

No US

[Sabio77]

Im sorry to hear that buddy65. I know that it is difficult. You sound like you love your son unconditionally, that's a good mother. Have you looked into professional help for him and for yourself? Maybe this goodbye is temporary and things can be worked out. Remember, it is a process; very doable. I will keep you in my prayers. Please keep us updated Hugs