Had my first cry of the year at 5 minutes past midnight. My best friend wished me a happy new year and I couldn't help but think that it's just gonna be more of the same.
I genuinely can't see myself progressing to a point where I can say I'm content with my life. I know I'm young, that I have my whole life ahead of me, but I'm already at that point where I'm done.
This can't be all there is. I'm so tired.
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Hello
Anxiety does not care what age we are . old , middle aged young it still affects us all the same
I felt low all last night and I have felt low all day so far so you are not alone feeling this way
But I have suffered years and one thing we have to keep doing is keep going and trying the best we can and you are not alone so when you feel down remember there is just for one a whole Community all trying some succeeded which could be us one day so don't give up , don't let anxiety and depression win , lets try and beat this together , we need each other x
Christmas and New Year tend to amplify any anxiety and sadness because society gives us the message we are "supposed to be" happy and optimistic at this time of year. But your feelings are important, and it's OK to feel sad. It won't always feel this way, but when it does, try to accept that is how you feel (rather than thinking you shouldn't feel this way).
Be kind to yourself. Do some things to nurture yourself.
Sometimes I think there's nothing in my life to be depressed about so why am I not happy? But then other people point out that, actually, I've got a lot of things to be depressed about. I can't see past my own thoughts.
Thank you for your response. I've actually taken up some new interests recently so I can get out of my own head for a while at least
I know exactly what you feel. I’m pretty down today too. Just want to lay around and sleep. This is a great place to let your feelings show. Nobody condemns you and people always reach out and share. The holidays are hard for people living with depression and anxiety. How you feel doesn’t fit with the way everyone says you should feel. So this year I am starting to say so what! I’ll take what I want and kick the rest to the curb. I’m not the ho ho ho jolly type and I not going to pretend I am anymore because it’s exhausting wearing that mask! I had a few times I enjoyed and that’s enough! If you want to cry go ahead we all understand. Sometimes while your crying is a good time to write in a journal. You might be surprised what comes out! ❤️❤️
I have a radio on in my room, I woke just in time for the Bongs of Big Ben, and them all hell let loose! Fireworks and the Hooters of the ships in the estuary! Then I rolled over and went back to sleep!
I know how draining it is to feel like that! Does your anxiety or depression.. (sorry not sure if you suffer from one or both) ever make you think you might not have a future? Or when you try to look to the future it’s blank?
Yes they do. Whenever I try to picture myself in 10 years, 20 years, god even next year, I can't. I can barely make it through the day without feeling some type of way about it. The future looks like white noise.
That happens to me too!! And it’s so scary, it’s made me panic so many times! It really helps to know others feel the same way. I think this is all linked to anxiety we have etc
Hi, just read your post and just glad that you are honest of your feelings. I am both suffering with depression and anxiety, and like yourself, am getting help with the support from my wonderful GPs. Just want you to know that thank you for reaching out on this forum because it has helped me a little. Just even replying to you, made me feel I am not alone. Been on medication for the last three months and still wake up the same with horrible stiffness and tears in my eyes. I have learnt that it will not disappear, as it has been a long build up to arriving to this. But with good friends and family and forums like this, I can see a glimmer of me being a better me, and I am treating each day one day at a time, and despite this, glad I still get up, even though I can sleep for England, and now sleep when and whatever time, and learning not to feel guilty for my feelings.
It took me way too long to be honest about how I felt. I didn't want to make anyone uncomfortable or be a burden - even now I still have my moments! But I'm getting there, and turns out I wasn't as alone as I thought, and isn't it nice to have that confirmed?
I wish you all the best, and I sincerely hope we can both get to a better place some day
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