New year, same story

[Meadow321]

I'm really struggling at the moment. Every day is harder than the last, it takes so much energy to just get up in the morning, knowing that no matter what I do that day, its just going to be another day I struggle through waiting for it to end.

I hate going to sleep at night...knowing that another day has passed and I've achieved nothing worthwhile...knowing that there's another day ahead full of anxiety.

I hate waking up...knowing that this day is just going to be like any other day.

I've been trying for so long now, years, to find a way to manage my anxiety. And nothing seems to work. I solve one issue and another one manifests in its place. And though I feel so so guilty for not valuing my life as I should, when other people go through so much worse, I just can't see anything goo anymore.

Slowly my anxiety is being replaced with that feeling of Just. Not. Caring.

[Hidden]

Depression has no logic. Please do not feel bad for not valuing your life right now or thinking other people have it worse. Depression can happen to anybody and it is equally difficult for all it effects. You sound so low right now and I am really sorry for that. Have you ever tried an antidepressant or been to see a therapist?

[Meadow321 in reply to Hidden]

I've tried a couple of anxiety/depression medications and none have had any effect. And the more I try, the worse I feel because that's another thing that's not helped. As for therapy, I'm still on the waiting list for CBT. And I know the wait time is long, but that doesn't helped my depressed state. I feel like I have nothing in the meantime.

[Hidden in reply to Meadow321]

It is good you are on the waiting list for CBT. I agree, it is a very long wait. I spent several years trying out antidepressants before I found the right one for me. It could be worth trying again. Anything has got to be better then feeling this bad.

[Meadow321 in reply to Hidden]

You’re right, anything must be better than this

[Hidden in reply to Meadow321]

Maybe you can go back to your doctor and ask to try another antidepressant. I really hope you find one that helps.

[Meadow321 in reply to Hidden]

I might do that.

Thank you x

[Mellowme73 in reply to Hidden]

I agree with all of you.

Faking smiling at a dead-end job that I just can't wait to be done only to start it again the next day. Where's the purpose in that. I need to get out of this rut. Maybe volunteering time to someone going through worse would give me a rewarding, purpose of being.

[Hidden in reply to Mellowme73]

A volunteering role sounds like a good idea. Maybe you can find something you have an interest in like an animal shelter.

[Want2BHappy3]

I agree, I've spent about 3 years mostly in bed and inside. I've tried to push through and had a couple of jobs only to not be able to handle it. I have innsomia, I don't go to sleep till the next day about 8/9 am. Can't tell you how miserable I feel. I don't Care about myself, though I do pray for help. Have you looked into counciling? I had to stop because I couldn't afford it. I'll look to going back when my medicare kicks in

[Mellowme73 in reply to Want2BHappy3]

I hope your Medicare kicks in soon....put a reminder call into them, maybe? My best to you!😊

[Want2BHappy3 in reply to Mellowme73]

Thanks it's not till December, as a matter of fact I just got off the phone with them, turns out they had sent my card out already and didn't see it? Probably got lost? Their send me a new one.

[Mellowme73 in reply to Want2BHappy3]

Keep on 'em...😊

[pink318]

Hello- I’m so sorry that you feel so low.

You can try to get a new prescription from your doctor. I’m glad that you will have the CBT soon.

Volunteering is a great idea. I hope it will help you to feel less lonely.

I hope you can get the help you need to stay well. I pray that you will find peace and strength you need to keep going each day. Take care.