I'm so shocked right now. Mom said she can't sleep because at night i'm screaming and talking and even walking and falling. I have no memories of this but i have memories of having nightmares and sometimes of screaming in my sleep. I'm really struggling, you have probably read my previous posts, i'm going through hell espessially with dad's problem. And i'm really anxious all the time. No proffesional could help, i'm thinking of changing them again. I tried to move out as well but failled. I'm really struggling and this makes me have insane nightmares and screem in my sleep. And mom just said she wants to sleep. When i told dad he texted me to go sleep in the other room. Like bruh you caused this and this is all you say?! If i'm in the other room, i will still be a somnambul. My parents showed no interest in my recovery but emphasised on me being a burden. I know i should be sleeping alone. I knooow. But i can't. I tried to move out. I tried to sleep in the kitchen but i failled. My flat has only a room, a kitchen and a bathroom. It's actually part of the problem. I was to Grandma's and i saw a pic (goddamn pic makes me go insane, i want to cry and call granma and yell at her for putting this pictures on the wall even though i would regret it later and apologize 10000 times). This pic was taken for a psychic who granma send me to because i had anxiety because i was bullied at school. He said there's a ghost and the ghost is the reason for my anxiety. Untill then i didn't want to sleep in the kitchen and dad went to sleep there and he left. When sis saw the pics she said "last Christmas with dad". This psychic ruined my life, my mom and sis' lifes. And i went there because of bullying. Bullying ruined my life and my family. And yesterday i was dreaming of ghosts. I was screaming in my sleep "mom help, ghosts, ghosts!". And dad had the nerves to tell me to sleep in the kitchen alone. I just hope it's a cognitive trap and not the ghost, psychic or bullies ruining my life because i wouldn't bear this. I would go insane If it was because of them. I just think my parents never got a long and i have always been afraid of ghosts even before the psychic. As little i could never sleep alone in a room, now i can but just not this kitchen. And dad showed zero empath that i'm sick of somnambulism and sent me there. Probably as a revenge. I developed somnambulism because i'm traumatized from his actions and because i'm in intense anxiety. Like that Lauren Jauregui song Invisible chains "Screaming in my sleep like every night. Just paying on the day when i see the light. Got a hundred miles left and i feel like i had to stay alive".
Yes, i tried to search for help but i can't find nothing and i can't take care of this, myself and exams alone 😭
