Holiday blues

[Lookingforhope20100]

All day today I've been in the dumps and I'm not sure why. Like when im with people I feel okay I guess but when I'm alone I feel so lonely and sad and have this ache in my chest that nothing can make go away. Also lately I feel like there is something wrong with me I'm always filled with anger and im easily annoyed I've never been like this before I'm lashing out at the people I love for just existing and I hate it but I don't know what to do about it and I don't get to see my therapist until the middle of January if I keep going on like this I have a bad feeling im going to start losing the people I love soon sorry just won't be enough to save my relationships with my family and what's worse is I get so annoyed with my daughter that I'm yelling at her when she gets into things and I push her away and I don't play with her as much I feel so bad about it and I can't even say sorry to her because she is too little to understand I just feel so bad and so negative all the time and I just want my daughter and my family to love and forgive me so I have to figure out what's going on with me before it's too late to make amends and fix things with the people I love. I can't talk about what's going on anywhere else so this is all I got right now.... Anyways have a happy holiday and stay safe and for me hug your loved ones

[Shnookie]

So sorry. R U on meds ? And if so R U taking them on a daily basis. I understand that your appointment isn’t until mid January but this is a special situation. I know these R the holidays but please try calling your therapist’s office. Maybe there is someone on call. to lower anxietycan be deep breathing, meditation, u listening to music U like. Try exercise as well. I know it’s hard when U have negative thoughts going on. R U close enough with your relatives to explain how U R feeling. It might be positive getting this off your chest. U can PM meI’m here 4 U hugs 🤗 Shnookie