Shattered and Broken.

[I_Hate_Me_2]

I’m really struggling. I know the bad people are laughing. I know they don’t care. Why would they? Why would anyone?

I really can’t do this anymore. Fight is tiring. I’m weak, torn and everything is just falling apart.

[Hidden]

Self love important and then you can deal with outside world. Leave the haters in their warped world. Enjoy and laugh yourself with comedy. Try

[I_Hate_Me_2 in reply to Hidden]

There are so many though Foggy. Ready to see me continue to find things really hard and not have a care in the world but then I’m left thinking why would they care?

[The_Color_Blue]

No one here is laughing at you. Your feelings matter here. You matter here.

No one here hates you. We are glad you’re here. We want to help.

No one here will judge you. You are free to be yourself here and to be honest about what you’re going through.

No one here will hurt you. We are a safe space.

People here care about you. They see your struggle and they want to offer support and encouragement. They see your fight and want you to know you’re not alone; they will walk the path beside you so that it is less scary.

Stay here a while and talk to us.

[I_Hate_Me_2 in reply to The_Color_Blue]

Thank you The_Color_Blue for your reply. Here has been really helpful to post and see that there are some lovely people in this world. This site has shown me this. Everyone here has shown more than I ever thought I was worthy of.

I hope this message finds you well and once again thank you for your lovely words 💚

[Hidden]

Hey most of us are really friendly and supportive on here. That's what this site is about. Once in awhile trolling does happen but there's way more of that on YouTube than here. No one here hates you. I don't even know you. So welcome!!!🙂

[I_Hate_Me_2 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you googoodollsfan. Trolls are everywhere but this site is amazing and so are the people on here.

[Against_the_current]

I know this feeling but it's intrusive, reminder it's intrusive, it's not real. Here we care about you. I'm struggling so much too. It's gonna be okay. At least with you

[I_Hate_Me_2 in reply to Against_the_current]

Glonk, thank you so much. The intrusiveness can feel so real.

I’m sorry you are struggling too. I’m here if you want to talk 💙

[Against_the_current in reply to I_Hate_Me_2]

Me too 💙

[Dolphin14]

I care about you. You are not alone Always remember I am here for you.

❤️🐬

[I_Hate_Me_2 in reply to Dolphin14]

Hello my lovely friend. I’ve a lot to message you over which I will once I get this phone on charge.

I know you care. I do for you as well and here for you too. Thank you for everything and you know what I mean 💜💜

[Dolphin14 in reply to I_Hate_Me_2]

❤️.... you are so sweet. You are a wonderful friend.

Merry Xmas

I hope there is something special under your tree.

❤️🐬

[I_Hate_Me_2 in reply to Dolphin14]

I’m lucky to have you as a friend. There sure is something special under the tree and know who it’s from. Merry Xmas to you too. Will message you later this evening (UK time though).

💜💜

[Midori]

Have you done anything for people to hate you? Who are these 'bad people?' Why would they laugh?

Have you seen your doctor? if not, please do so because I think you urgently need some help. I get the feeling you are hypersensitive, but I have a little bit of ancient wisdom (I'm 73). People in the main are unthinking. They see somebody or something in the street and think it's funny. so they laugh, then they totally forget it. By the time they turn the next corner they have totally forgotten about the person or thing they laughed at.

It hurts particularly if you are not conventional looking, or dress differently, or are disabled, if you are deaf, or stutter or something similar. People can be cruel, yes. But they have short memories. So pity them, don't take it to heart, because it means less that a cloud on the wind.

Cheers, Midori

[I_Hate_Me_2 in reply to Midori]

Hi Midori. It’s from family who don’t want nothing to do with me. They know things are hard. I have a dysfunctional family with many wounds too hurtful to mend and the younger generation follow rather than try and patch things up. I’ve tried to patch it up with a small few and failed. Some I have been part of and was around and struggle. They choose to turn a blind eye and make jokes of the whole thing.

I’m currently in therapy and also seeing GP in the days after Xmas and before new year. I got a call back and now have a face to face appt. Just trying to do the best I can really

[Midori in reply to I_Hate_Me_2]

You can disown them, and find people who will be good friends, and a surrogate family, rather like us. Being a worldwide Forum means there are folks on at almost any hour of the day and night.

We are a supportive bunch of folk, we all have mental difficulties from one extent to another, but we help each other through, apart from the occasional troll which manages to find a hole to creep in through. Admins soon banish them though!

Anyone who gives you trouble, report them! Easy, innit?

We all have times when we feel like life is no longer worth living; my kids kept me going when life got really tough, but they are both grown up now. I have come to the point in life when I don't care what folk think of me. At 74, I wear jeans and teeshirts with sarky slogans on. I live for Me, not what anyone else thinks.

Cheers, Midori

[KrierandRosie]

You are stronger than you think. I often feel the same way, weak and worthless. It is scary. I worry about being alone with no one. You need yourself. You can count on you. Can you get a pet? They provide unconditional love. Humans are quite unreliable. Rely on you.

[I_Hate_Me_2 in reply to KrierandRosie]

Thank you for your reply Krierandrosie. I’m sorry you know all too well the feelings of being weak and worthless. I would love to get a pet but it’s not feasible at the moment.

I know you say humans are unreliable but here if you ever want to talk.

It’s quite hard to rely on yourself though. Especially for yourself.