The title says it all pretty much. I really just feel too broken for anyone to love, too battered from all the damage that people have done to me in my life, and too bruised to stop hurting for any real solid length of time.
Broken, Battered, and Bruised - Anxiety and Depre...
Broken, Battered, and Bruised
Hi Dragon, Your post saddens me my friend. No one should have to feel your pain.
Only you can fix what's broken right now but it's well worth the effort. Never give up
and never say never. We're here for you xx
Hi Dragon, what's going on??? I'm at rock bottom too. Feels like my life is never going to get any better. And I know no Prince is going to come save me and rescue me, I have to rescue myself. Reality really sucks sometimes, doesn't it???
I made the mistake of telling my best friend I had fallen in love with her and since then it just seems like opening up and telling her how I feel has done nothing but damage to our friendship and I just can't handle it right now. It just free like I'm never the right person or there is always something wrong with me and I'm just tired of hurting so much
Sometimes it is not safe to open up to certain people, I know. I can be a narcissists snack!!! I think it's probably best not to be so open with her anymore and talk about it to some other friends or a therapist. Try to let it go. I know it's hard. I still have feelings for someone I knew years ago who I will never see again. I see his stupid picture on the internet, it haunts me .
I can't let it go that easily especially when she flat out told me she knows I would treat her great and I'd be the best thing to ever happen to her. She is just so scared of feeling anything for me
Wow!!!! Well I don't know what to say. Maybe time will play this thing out.
Yeah that is my hope it just gets hard some nights because I love with her and her son. Plus moving out isn't currently an option with the freeze on section 8 housing here currently
I used to have a section 8 voucher and I lost it. But I hated having it anyways. Had to fill out and hand in all that paperwork once a year. It just wasn't worth it. Now I'm at my parents house and my dad sucks. We are never going to get along. He likes to threaten me.
Look at it this way...you took a risk. You were vulnerable and thats a really good sign. Don't view it as a mistake just because you didn't get the response you were hoping for. Give her some time and space. Respect her and yourself. Heartbreak is human. It hurts like hell, but try not to let it have you start believing there is somethign wrong with you. All people get their heart broken at some point or another. The sooner you pick yourself up, the sooner you can start speaking to available woman and find someone cool to hang out with. Just be careful that the girl you told doesn't start playing with your heart. Sometimes women who have male friends who treat them well will do that - they'll friendzone you and wont let you go date other people because their afraid to lose you. Just let her go and find a girl who wants you the same way you want her.
Sadly to say - there is much more to be done (craply minded) by people to us all, but this isn't a reason to stop believing in your personal identity, not a reason to refuse from your own life. That's a tiny option to prove yourself your own availability.
I love me. I might not like some of the decisions I've made but I can look in the mirror and love me. I don't know you but you're worthy of love. Everyone is. I'll be the first to admit I've done a lot of stupid things in my past but I'm 54 and still here to complain or laugh with people. I've been physically, sexually and mentally abused. It's very hard to trust people but not every person is bad, we seem to attract them? Or maybe we choose poorly because we don't think we're worth it... but we are. Every single person deserves to be loved and to love.
Hey Dragon... I always say be the dragon that u are. I think u are feeling low... The last post u were very positive and I was inspired . Am I not inspired with this post of urs? I'll be lying if I said I am not inspired. It always like this. One moment we are motivated and full of fire, the next we doubt all. It is ur mind that is playing tricks on u... U will be fine, we are here for u
I know and when we are feeling sick and at our lowest things tend to sit wrong or linger and cause a lot of unwanted pain and strain on our health and right now that is where I'm at. I've had to cancel 2 different appointments this week because I've been exposed to covid and I'm feeling sick and cooped up and so many other things that I just can't function properly without something triggering me to tears. I'm craving physical companionship and it just isn't possible to get what I want and need right now.
Hey Dragon,
Wow, that's rough man, I hear you. Any chance of double masking up and getting out for a walk in some fresh air while keeping a good distance from others? Just moving out and about sometimes helps with the cabin fever. Peace be with you.