In response to my post last night, I wrote it feeling very low and feeling very as the last posts title says lonely. I was feeding into my emotional low point that I would normally write down in a private journal but last night wanted it to be open and to the public as a task for myself to be more open about my problems, which in time will be then more open about this to my friends IRL.
For this this place is turning into my thrapy tasks to bring myself into a new place with my emotions.
I really appreciate everyone that replied and it helped me alot. Thank you everyone