Update about yesterday : i'm cursed

[Against_the_current]

Update : I actually spilled more water on myself than then. If i had broken the glas, it would be my glass, my accomodation's glass and i would have to pay it and even If i didn't i still broke my glass. I was mistreated and trying to fight back, i hurt only myself. I'm stressed af and going home and stressing out, i couldn't sleep, i'm stressing now, i'm going home and stressing about it now. They probably, no they surely don't give a damn. I'm going out of my house in order not to bother idiots Who don't give a damn anyway. I'm panicing so hard about going home, mom, dad, sis - them bothering me and me bothering them - dad just desided to come and drive me home, i was too paniced to cancel and am feeling bad he's drinking me, mom i will go to hers without even a day earlier telling her, same with sis - i'm probably annoying to her, she can't invite friends, she changed and her annoying mentally unstable sister is coming. Also i hope they don't bother me with their normal stories. I always do this - i get treated bad and then i spill the water on myself and get all the damage of someone mistreating me. Really, right now i can't take care of myself. I really can't. I don't even know whether my situation is really bad, i'm really sick or i'm Overthinking it but i can't take care of those things and i'm worried. I swear i try so hard to fix my situation, to seek help, meds, therapists, to step out of my comfort zone, to have fun. I try so hard but i can't, i fail everything. I spill the water on myself