Paralyzing Depression

[JEG1919]

I have a family history of depression and have experienced symptoms since I was twelve. My main symptoms are an inability to move and do things. I literally feel paralyzed and my mind feels like it is in a fog. My parents had issues as well and I lost my six year old daughter to cancer several years ago. I do feel joy but the depressive episodes really drain me and weigh me down.

[Mikam1967]

I've been dealing with depression since I lost my job in 2005. I think it may have been longer but thats when I had an official diagnosis. Then after my twins, I thought it was the depression worsening, but that's when the doctor diagnosed me with bipolar. It's been hard dealing with it because I have hard time functioning at time or just crying for no reason. I also have a hard time getting organized. I'm not sure if what I shared helped, but please let me know if there's anything more I can help with. Do you have a doctor or counselor that you can talk to? Maybe you have a friend or family you can talk to? Sending you my encouragement and prayers.

[JEG1919 in reply to Mikam1967]

Thank you.

[Shnookie]

Hi. It’s Shnookie. My condolences on the loss of your daughter. As one who has felt the deep throes of depression, I empathize with U and understand what U go thru when U have your depressive episodes. U R gutsy to come here. We R a supportive welcoming group and U can express your emotions freely here. U can personally message me. I’m here 4 U.

Hugs 🤗 S ❤️💪

[JEG1919 in reply to Shnookie]

Thank you.

[Shnookie in reply to JEG1919]

U R very welcome

[Jeff1943]

So sorry to hear about your daughter, losing a 6-year old child in that way is the hardest blow of all to take. It could well be that your depression comes from this tragedy that (understandably) you have not come to terms with.

May I suggest that you should remember that you did everything in your power to care for your daughter and make her happy both before and after her illness. I bet she never went hungry, felt the cold or was frightened whilst you were around. I bet she felt your love for her every minute of her life

Now she is a free spirit, no more pain and discomfort, and she loves you still for all the ways you helped her and your sacrifices for her. I bet the last thing she wants is for you to be unhappy and depressed if her passing is the reason for your melancholia.

Keep the happy memories but accept that this has happened and that life holds further happiness in the future for that I believe is what she wants for you more than anything else.

[JEG1919 in reply to Jeff1943]

Thank you Jeff

[Cdsa]

Hi, just wanted to say you are not alone in feeling paralyzed and in a fog during you episodes. I too feel very similar and is is a real battle to get my mind and body to do anything other than succumb to the numbness. I am so sorry for each of us that have this disease and I am grateful that we are here to listen to , be listened to and to offer hope that there is hope as ling as we are able to believe things will improve if we keep doing what our doctors, therapists and support peers recommend. I am sending healing energy and virtual hugs to you.

[JEG1919 in reply to Cdsa]

Thank you.

[Hollick]

Jeg, I'm sorry for your loss, dealing with depression is very difficult and different for everyone..I hope we both can feel better, and brighter days ahead..stay strong..God bless..

[JEG1919 in reply to Hollick]

Thank you.

[JEG1919]

Thank you Hollick