Breathe and dream are my answers for now

[Starrlight]

Breathe in through the nose deeply then do short fast ones out through the nose to calm down.

I have been getting scared. I think it’s because I’ve skipped my nighttime meds a few times accidentally ...

I want to cry but I can’t quite

I feel depressed

I can still laugh at times I even danced today but then I sunk deeply and I know some of where it stems from... I have strengthened a few relationships in my life recently and I had to let one go to rot and step wisely snd carefully ignoring most of it with another the best I can

I spent quality time one on one with all of my kiddos and with all of my family together too so I can’t ask for much more except for my deep down pain that I can’t explain to make some sense so I can work on it ... there’s sometimes this place I go to that is so strange and I feel it bubbling up hope to see it and heal it

I’m doing work with my dreams. I’m all into it with dream journals and researching and such. I love to interpret them.

Here is an excerpt from one of my dream books-

You are what your deepest desire is

As is your desire, so I’d your intention.

As is your intention, do is your will.

As is your will, so is your deed.

As is your deed, so is your destiny.

- Upanishads

[Hope4me1]

Just accept and heal. Try to enjoy what you can. I send you healing peace and joy.❤️

[Starrlight in reply to Hope4me1]

❤️

[Starrlight in reply to Hope4me1]

Thank you I will try to just accept

[Hope4me1]

I know it’s a process for all of us. I am slowly learning.💕🌻🌷

[Starrlight in reply to Hope4me1]

Yeah? We’re in it together (((((( hug)))))) One minute it’s all good the next I feel like I just can’t stand all the thoughts racing so I am going to meditate right now ... I’ll let you know how it goes.

[Hope4me1]

It can be a roller coaster ride for sure. But remember it’s all ok. It ok to not feel ok. Meditate well; breathe😊🌼

[Starrlight in reply to Hope4me1]

🌈 ❤️💙🧡💜💚💛🏵️

[Starrlight]

Meditation well I’m glad I tried it. It made me notice my physical pain more. But it was a good mental break. To be honest i feel worse. The things I’m thinking I are driving me crazy but I know they are only thoughts. You know this is my life maybe my only life and I let people rule me with some things ive allowed. I’m done with that. I’m my own now. I’m not going to let anyone mess with my life. I’ll do what I want.

[Hope4me1]

Sometimes meditation is not helpful as it should be. Have you tried the app Insight Timer? They have some meditations that uplift you with positive affirmations. They have helped me in times of deep emotional anxiety.

[Starrlight in reply to Hope4me1]

Thanks

[Hidden]

Our dreams can be very helpful to us, Starrlight. I know this from experience. They can help us heal ourselves.

Dreams are road signs along the night-time highway of sleep ~

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Yes we receive so much. Dreams are the only thing that I’m really interested in right now.

[Dubba61]

Sometimes all we can do, is Breath, n wait for it to pass. Hope it passed for you soon Starr. ⭐🧝

[Starrlight in reply to Dubba61]

Thank you ... I’m so deep in hell right now. I have trouble doing the smallest of things. My mind and body feels like they are torturing me. My spirit won’t give up but damn this is hard.

[propjock in reply to Starrlight]

I am sorry you are having such a bad stretch. It is very hard to remember when mind and body are screaming the opposite, but Love Has Won.

[Starrlight in reply to propjock]

❤️ thank you, I love it. You are right.

[propjock in reply to Starrlight]

Would you like to hear the song? It’s a Christian song. The line, “This is a song for the hurting / I hope that it helps you to heal” was in my dreams or half-awake. I had to look up the song.

[Dubba61]

It is Starlight. All will be well though, as it has been before. Chin up! You can do this. ✨

[Starrlight in reply to Dubba61]

💜 💙💛💚❤️