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[BriannaC]

Hey everyone im new, however; I'm Struggling with anxiety and depression and i'm also bipolar. I have been struggling with these things most of my life. I was recently released from prison in 2018. I also struggle with codependency. Since being released and trying to get my life back on track things have been extremely hard. I get 10 steps ahead just to get back knocked down. I recently got suspended from my job because of my background in which was disclosed at the time of applying but since then i've been extremely depressed and sad. I just feel worthless. I allowed a man to be the reason why i now have a background. But once you become a felon, the world now see me as a bad apple and treat me as if i'm not even human. I've been moping around the house, not eating, not really caring about my appearance(except for hygiene). Things just have been extremely hard and being that i relocated to start over and try to let the past go it just seem to always be a constant reminder. I'm now married however; I just feel alone in my emotions regardless of expressing or attempting to express my feelings i just shut down. I don't know what to do at this point anymore but giving up isn't an option not saying that I haven't had suicidal thoughts but even then i just turn on gospel music to try to keep a positive mind set. I have pcos and me and my husband were trying for a baby but previously because of constant disappointment he no longer wants a baby so as a woman you just feel worthless although he say that he's okay with it just being us two, most women want to be a mom and i'm one of them so yeah i'm struggling so bad with really no one to talk to.

[Agora1]

Dearest Brianna xThank you for your honesty in sharing your journey through life.

I've always believed in second chances. After all, you have paid your

just dues to society and it's now time for you to pick up the pieces and become

whole again.

You deserve to find your happiness again. We're all human and we make

mistakes. But through those mistakes we grow. Don't allow anyone to push

you down or make you feel less than a person.

Use this time to work on yourself, your self esteem and confidence in who you

are now. Look on YouTube and watch videos on Affirmations. Let all the positive

reinforcement saturate your mind. Become who you were meant to be.

Life is about learning. When we fall, we must get up or we end up staying in a cycle

of defeat getting us no where.

As for having children in your life, first you must work on yourself. Then when the time

is right, there are many children needing a forever mom and dad. Starting with Foster Care

can give you an idea if you are stable and ready enough to share your love with a child.

Adoption is always a possibility.

Don't give up your dream in being a mommy. I'm sure you would be a very loving one.

One day at a time Brianna... When the time is right, everything will fall into place.

Let us help you become the best you can be and give you the reason you are here at this

time and on this safe site. I'm happy to Welcome you new friend xx

[BriannaC in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much and I will go look at those videos on youtube. Your words of encouragement definitely went along way🙂