The curious case of Kitty (I'm new here and just wanted to do a brief intro :) )

[Kitty_Nevermore]

Hiya, you can call me Kitty I guess, I'm not really good at talking about myself but I felt it might be important to let you know you're not alone. I struggle with severe symptoms of Bipolar, PTSD, Anxiety, Depression, and neglect since I was about 6 and 12 + years later I've had to teach myself everything I know and I'm still learning I have a hard time making friends because of past traumatic relationships/friendships and usually I have a hard time letting people get to know me. I was lucky enough to get a new job at Starbucks as a Barista which is pretty strange for me because im usually pretty introverted and its very difficult for me to talk with people in person sometimes I say random things on my mind to try to make some kind of conversation and to let people know I care but it can be pretty embarassing especially if a panic attack happens and im trying to focus on not blacking out so i will most likely be posting about my struggles with the new job as well or offering tips of how I was able to make it through the day Just wanted to let you all know you're not alone and I know how difficult it can be even just to get through the day or how horrible it is when random moments of feeling alone hits out of nowhere, but as long as we are here for eachother it makes it that much easier and makes life that much better Im sorry if this was a bit long or gloomy but I told you im not really good at this lol thank you so much for your time and Please please please feel free to offer me advice, stop by for a chat however you do that on here or share your own stories and experiences, I will definately reply to you as soon as I can and I value everything you all have to say very much and I know we can make it through this hectic life together as a community .

[JLoInCali12]

Welcome to the group Kitty!

[Kitty_Nevermore in reply to JLoInCali12]

Thank you so much i'm happy to be here ^_^ I totally love your blog posts I can definately relate how nature is super helpful to heal my anxiety almost like recharging in a way i guess to get away from the busy city life for a bit and just enjoy the scenery and the sounds of the animals and such can almost be like a song sometime i love it anyways I sent you a follow thingie thank you so much for the warm welcomes!

[Sillysausage234]

Not gloomy 😊..welcome

[kittenkisses91]

Welcome to the group Kitty! And congratulations on the new job! Being a barista must be stressful, but it may help in the long run with your anxiety because it is pushing you out of your comfort zone and soon your self-confidence will build as you get better and more familiar with the job.

I also suffer from anxiety and depression. I'm very introverted. I got a job working customer service which was crazy for me since I have social anxiety but I actually got really comfortable talking to people. It's now actually one of the better parts of my day because when I am helping someone I am not worrying about my problems, and I am hopefully making their day better. I know fun coffee drinks will make your customers happier! Which should make you feel good about yourself!

[Kitty_Nevermore in reply to kittenkisses91]

Hurray! im glad to see im not the only kitten here hehe, thank you so much for sharing about yourself iand for cheering me on i totally love your name and the cute avatar thingie you have it's definately nice meeting more people here who can relate, I do agree the more I talk to people usually it makes me feel more comftorable at times because when im not usually I get stuck in my own head if you understand and thats not always a good place lol.

But sometimes at least recently I'm trying to teach myself to laugh more I know i can be very talkative and silly but sometimes in social situations im asking so many questions or very odd questions even though it usually does stay on subject it can feel pretty awkward and embarassing so instead of tripping over my thoughts so to speak and having awkward silence i usually try to laugh or giggle or say sorry im just being silly lol, I really love helping people it's part of what got me hurt a lot in the past so in a job environment at least I feel a little bit more safer since i will be busy doing two huge things I love making yummie coffee and helping people

Im heading off to work it will be my first official day behind the coffee bar lol so i will definately post how that went, thanks again for helping me start my day with a smile and I hope youre having a lovely day.

[kittenkisses91 in reply to Kitty_Nevermore]

Have a great first day! Have fun with it! And it made me happy to help you so thank you!