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[jadenbeau]

Hey, I have spoken to a few people on here already, but haven't really told my story.

Long story short doctor kept me on benzos for 6 years. I decided to come off last year.... Wow not once was I ever told about withdrawal

I have been to hell and have been passed about from doctor to MH to drug and alcohol services who tried to pass me back to my doctor then back to MH but said they would help saw their doctorast week who said I need my doctor to refer me...

This had been going on since last June

I've learnt that doctors don't really know How to get people off these drugs, maybe that's why my doctor left me for 6 years as he knew how mad the withdrawal was

WHY.... That's what I'll be asking when I'm off these horrid drugs

[Cured2020]

If you don’t mind, could you tell me what Benzos you were on? Was it Xanax/Alprazolam?

[jadenbeau in reply to Cured2020]

Hey no it is diazepam

Been put back to 15 mg back to where I was last June. Honest to god bloody doctor

[LadyZen]

I had some withdrawal symptoms from the Buproprion. I was hungry all the time. I'd wake in the middle of the night starving. I felt crazy in need of food. I incorporated protein shakes until the withdrawal symptoms went away. It did take awhile.

[jadenbeau in reply to LadyZen]

Buproprion is an antidepressant I'm On benzos so it Completely different. People are taking years to come off these they should never be prescribed for more that 6 weeks, docs had me on them for 6 years so now my brain chemisty has completely changed and it can take a long time for it to repair the gabba synapse that are no longer there.

Thank u for replying

[LadyZen in reply to jadenbeau]

Oh my goodness! How awful. I'm so sorry to hear that. What on earth was the doc thinking.

[jadenbeau in reply to LadyZen]

I know my thoughts too but it's happening all over I never realised how bad it was but as soon as you look it up its like wow how are these things not banned. Doctors have been sued over it but yet they continue.

I am so anti Doctor

They are still trying to throw antidepressants at me I've told them politely were they can stick them x

[LadyZen in reply to jadenbeau]

I know what you mean. I've met a lot of terrible doctors due to my daughter's health issues. When I did find a good one, I made sure not switch. It was years of searching before I found an ENT that cured her.

[jadenbeau in reply to LadyZen]

See that gives me some hope, I guess we can't tar all Docs with the same brush.

Shame it took so long but glad you found one in the end x

[Agora1]

Hi jadenbeau, I was put on a small dose of Xanax and left on it for 30 years.

At the time, I was told since it was a small dose, it would not be a problem.

I guess in a way, I was lucky that it worked for me that length of time before it

no longer did anything. From there I was place on high doses of Ativan which

didn't even touch the anxiety. It was then I decided I wanted off all benzos.

My psychiatrist was a benzo specialist so I was fortunate in having proper and safe

guidance in weaning off the drug. However, even at that, it took me 2 years to

completely wean of benzos as well as another year for my brain to heal.

Doctors seem to be more vigilant now a days regarding benzos. It's more a

"take as needed" order rather than everyday as I was on.

I wish you well my friend. I hope you get the help you need. xx

[jadenbeau in reply to Agora1]

Hey thank you. It's rely hard to find help, due to it being prescription, I've been passed about since last due after a rapid drop from 15mg to 8 mg then basicly left on my own waiting for the drug place to get I touch I called numerous times with no reply I finally got an appoint 8 weeks ago to be told it should be my doc sorting it. I said doc passed me to MH who passed me to you then they said MH should deal with it, again I said I was passed by MH they said we will try to get u to see our doc I saw him last week go said he can't treat me with out a referral From my doc ffs it's like dead ends. The while asking for a referral my doc put me back on 15mg which is what I was on last june.

Do I've been through torture for nothing. Now I'm struggling still from withdrawal plus its broke me just feel broken and what they left me to go through on my own has damaged me I can not pull myself out of it. It's horrible I never knew about withdrawal. I have had to do all my own research and doctors are still passing them out.

I had to do pee tests at the drug place, with made me feel demoralised. I k ow it's there job but I ain't an addict I'm dependant I don't crave these drugs and to be treat like a drug addict like they don't believe me when I say I only take diazepam. When I said I don't drink he looked shocked I actually said, bloody hell ya nearly fell Off ya chair. He said well normally people go don't drink are on drugs wow he's meant to be my key worker lol. X it's horrendous, if it had been done correctly from the beginning it would have saved all this suffering I have never felt anything like it and the worse thing is there is no escape u can't take anything to relieve the symptoms. I am really angry at my doctor, I will be seeing him eventually and I will look him in the eyes and say WHY it is cruel what u have done.

I admire you coming off I wish I never touched them. X

[Agora1 in reply to jadenbeau]

jadenbeau, I'm so sorry in what you are going through but I do understand.

It is not a hopeless situation, don't give up. My doctor used the

Dr. Heather Ashton Method of weaning off benzos. Because of the length of time

I was on it, it was a slow but safe method. Maybe one of your doctors can have a

look and offer you some guidance. You can't do this on your own. This format

is on the internet for free.

The thing about this method is that it is slow but precise, cutting dosages every 2

weeks. Having some direction helps make the symptoms more bearable in knowing

you are consistent in weaning off the drug. You are not and never have been an

addict. Your body got dependent. (and that's different) My pride was hurt at the

time as well when the word "addict" came up. I don't smoke, I don't drink and I

follow doctor's orders to a "T".

I so feel for you being on this Merry go Round. I hope some how, some way

you get the support you need and the professional guidance of a physician.

My best to you. xx

[jadenbeau in reply to Agora1]

I looked at the Ashton manual and I think the 1mg every 2 weeks or so would be too much

I'd have to liquid taper too as I can be bring mad professor cutting ng and mixing, I've no hope I can't even bake a cake lol. I waiting for the doctor who I saw at the drug place who needed a referral from my doc. But they r shit at getting back, I rang my jet worker and said doctors facing the referal tonight drop me a text when u get it that was a week ago and not heard a thing. It pisses me off I'm constantly chasing them. X

[Agora1 in reply to jadenbeau]

Keep after them jaden. This is your life and you shouldn't have

to fight each step of the way. xx

[Kimber55]

Look at survivingantidepressants.org. Lots of helpful info for Benzos too. So hard