Okay. So, I am 27 years young.
As I have (sort of) posted, I have been going through some anxiety and depression issues. I have recently gotten my medication back(WOO!), and I cannot wait for it to get back into my system, fully.
However, here in the recent months I have found myself easily forgetting things. I disassociate quite often and it takes a while for others to get my attention. I feel them nudging me, but I can't bring myself to bring my focus to them.
Today as I was returning home from going to a friend's house, I remembered that I needed something from the dollar store. So when I pulled up to the stop sign, I typed in the nearest dollar store and turned off into that direction.
It was only a seven minute drive. But, as soon as I placed my car in park, the reason for me driving there had left my memory rather quickly. I sat there for a few moments, scraping at my brain, trying desperately to find a small remnant of the memory. But, I couldn't. Reluctantly, I pulled out of the parking lot and drove home.
I still can't remember what it was that I needed.
This wasn't the first time. I doubt it'll be the last. I find myself in mid conversation and my words falling out of existence. I call friends and family and am left unable to speak, fore the reason of my call is gone. I grab my car keys almost always having to lay them back down, where was I even going?
This has caused me quite a bit of anxiety and fear. I don't want to wake up one day and be unable to remember my S/O. Or wake up and not know where I am...the anxiety over it doesn't help at all.
Is it anxiety related? What is going on with me?!
{Small vent...sorry..}