Losing my memory.

[iVita]

Okay. So, I am 27 years young.

As I have (sort of) posted, I have been going through some anxiety and depression issues. I have recently gotten my medication back(WOO!), and I cannot wait for it to get back into my system, fully.

However, here in the recent months I have found myself easily forgetting things. I disassociate quite often and it takes a while for others to get my attention. I feel them nudging me, but I can't bring myself to bring my focus to them.

Today as I was returning home from going to a friend's house, I remembered that I needed something from the dollar store. So when I pulled up to the stop sign, I typed in the nearest dollar store and turned off into that direction.

It was only a seven minute drive. But, as soon as I placed my car in park, the reason for me driving there had left my memory rather quickly. I sat there for a few moments, scraping at my brain, trying desperately to find a small remnant of the memory. But, I couldn't. Reluctantly, I pulled out of the parking lot and drove home.

I still can't remember what it was that I needed.

This wasn't the first time. I doubt it'll be the last. I find myself in mid conversation and my words falling out of existence. I call friends and family and am left unable to speak, fore the reason of my call is gone. I grab my car keys almost always having to lay them back down, where was I even going?

This has caused me quite a bit of anxiety and fear. I don't want to wake up one day and be unable to remember my S/O. Or wake up and not know where I am...the anxiety over it doesn't help at all.

Is it anxiety related? What is going on with me?!

{Small vent...sorry..}

[RainbowAfterTheStorm]

Hi! You should ask your doctor if any of this could be related to the medication. There's no way of knowing over the internet if a medication could cause these symptoms. I would try to journal your experiences to look for triggers or associations, see if it happens more often when you've skipped a meal, for example. Also make sure to stay hydrated, maybe get your blood pressure checked, too. It could also be psychosomatic (physical symptoms related to your anxiety), in which case meditation, exercise, and other self-care stuff would be helpful in addition to mentioning it to your doctor. Good luck!

[iVita in reply to RainbowAfterTheStorm]

Oh yes. That is what I shall be doing. I can't wait to go and see them and mention it. Because this seems like something that should be mentioned, haha.

[notanotter in reply to RainbowAfterTheStorm]

Good idea to write notes about these incidents! Medication journaling is super useful.

[Idaho-girl]

You are so young for this to happen to you. I have experienced exactly what you described but I am older than you.

The main thing I have done is write down as soon as what I was thinking pops into my head. Have a pencil and pad in your pocket all the time. You will get used to that.

The other thing is when I think of something, I repeat it aloud as many times as I can and that

helps me remember more. If I am going into a room, I repeat what I am going for or else

I will forget. One more thing is if you are on any meds. check with you doctor to see what

side effects you could experience. I wish you well; it certainly can be scary. I will acknowledge that my memory has improved quite a bit. I hope yours does too. From Idaho-girl.

[Blueruth]

Depression can cause it too. While you are figuring it out make your phone ai do the work. I tell Siri to remind me to buy whatever at some time or when I get to some store all the time. It really helps.

[iVita]

Thank you all for your kind words and advice. I write this while I am half asleep, haha.I keep quite a few notebooks nowadays, they help me remember quite a bit(when I remember them).