Seasonal depression

[Against_the_current]

Anyone else struggling with the weather getting darker and colder? These short dark cold days are freaking me out. And the probability of getting sick from an autumn or winter flu. And past traumas getting triggered

[Hidden]

Yes I feel the same way. Earlier this year I purchased a weighted blanket and sad lamp so I’m hoping to use them to help me through these cold dark nights.

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

That's so cute! Hope they help

[SplashDown]

It always affects me, too. Your post helped remind me of my season-triggered trauma from 50 years ago -- I forgot about that somehow this year, and this is helpful to answer in part why I had a sudden bout of anxiety watching a movie the other day which made no sense because the movie had -0- triggers. Nothing is going on in the present that I am not used to by now, so the shift into fall and the sudden anxiety attack makes sense now. (PS - one thing that is working for me is walking outside in nature -- even the shortest walk is making a huge difference. Even when it gets cold, I am going to bundle up and do it. It is really helping). Take care!

[Against_the_current in reply to SplashDown]

So sorry the trauma stayed for so long. And yes walks are from my fave too. Take care

[TyrSwimmer_Sac]

I feel for you too, though I'm more on the opposite side. It gets hot during the summer so when winter comes I do a lot better. I can get out and about when the sun isn't cooking me alive in 104 F temps. I get very depressed, stressed, isolated and miserable locked away at home. I can't seem to stay cool as my anxiety drives up my body temp too. I need to draw the curtains to keep the heat out and I'm sure the lack of light also makes my depression grow.

It's all about trying to self manage the symptoms, though like John Lennon said, "with a little help from my friends". Support is such a huge gain in this management. I hope you continue to reach out when you just can't do it alone. I'm here and others to help boost you where and when we can do it. Feel free to DM me any time. Cheers.

[Against_the_current in reply to TyrSwimmer_Sac]

Thanks! ✨❤️

[TyrSwimmer_Sac in reply to Against_the_current]

School can suck when you don't have the support to tackle social issues along with the studies that encompasses the whole college experience. I remember it well and admit I didn't get what I needed to finish college. Plus I got involved with someone and that just collapsed my pursuit for my degree.

[Against_the_current in reply to TyrSwimmer_Sac]

So sorry to hear it. I worry about my sister, being first year in highschool and having no support, espessially with me moving away. I also got messed by someone this year, they used me getting weak through all of this and all my problems - dad's baby and mom drinking and worrying about sis, to get me and then just broke me more when i was already weak. I really don't know how i made it out. So that sucks and i'm sorry you had a similar experience

[TyrSwimmer_Sac in reply to Against_the_current]

Fortunately it is in my past and done. It's more about you right now. I want you to know it's ok to lean on someone you can trust. There are good people out here and on here. Given that Feel free to reach out if you need to talk and you need someone to listen/lean on. I think you'll find the sharing of thoughts will ease some of your tension and stress. I am here and you can direct message me if you like. I'll respond as soon as I get off work. Putting that out there. Take care of you and when you are ready you can help out your sister. I know that for a fact. I did the same thing with my younger sister. I am still doing that today with my younger sister. You have a good heart that isn't a weakness. It'll carry you further than you think still when it gets to much reach out.

[Against_the_current in reply to TyrSwimmer_Sac]

Thank you so much. You're so kind

[Blueruth]

Yes. I am lucky to work at home so I don't have to use much energy to get ready. Breakfast and craft brew coffee have always been what gets me up. My favorite meal of the day. My cat however does not help. When the light is at a specific place she wakes me up. So until the clocks fall back she gets me up earlier and earlier and earlier. 4:30 -5am is the earliest.Did you get sick with flu in 2020? There was less of it because everyone was wearing masks. Something to keep in mind.

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

Yeah. Actually my trauma with flues comes from like 2007-2016 with these years being the worst. And i'm actually afraid of the probability of getting to study from home again, it's cozy and less triggering but i'm gonna go crazy all day alone in student accomodation or at mom's. When i'm on online university, everyone think i'm free and doing nothing and being worthless.

[Blueruth in reply to Against_the_current]

I can see that. I am working in a coworking office right now and I really like it. I’m not telling anybody though. I like my freedom what makes you think they think you are doing nothing? Do you have to turn in assignments? Think of 2020 as a silver lining. You can wear a mask and not be questioned. If they do you can be a smart ass and say I was fluless in 2020. I’m fluless in 2021.

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

Thanks :)Tbh when i'm at home and waking up later, it seems to them i'm doing nothing, despite me studying hard and turning all my assignments with high scores. They just be like "You aren't doing anything, do this and this, i'm more tired than you". Feeling so worthless and that's why i'm thinking about staying at accomodation (at least roommates won't tell me in the face i'm worthless 😅) but all day in my room seems scary