Rough ride

[Strongest123]

Hello everyone on here. I hope my message finds everyone doing well. I myself am not. I’m a retired single dad to a beautiful 10 year old daughter. I retired a couple of years ago due to my severe depression. I fell into a deep depression back in 2015, and it just kept getting worse. I also have OCD, since childhood. Lately I’ve been struggling with just motivation. Simple things to do have been difficult. The negative thoughts, and the what if’s have been really getting to me. Now lately I’ve been tweaking my medications, and just following my drs advice, but I just don’t feel right. I feel like impending doom is about to happen. I’ve been really struggling the last couple of weeks. It seems I can’t even enjoy moments with my daughter. I’ve had mental disease all my life, but the last few days I feel really really off. Thank you. SAMSON

[Agora1]

Hi Strongest123, Whenever the doctors are adjusting our medications, it can get worsebefore getting better. Finding the right dosage for you alone as well as the right time of

the day or evening to take it can make all the difference in the world.

Sometimes it not about raising the dose but changing the time we take it.

I'm been there. xx

[Strongest123 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you very much, I surely appreciate the support. SAMSON.

[notanotter]

Hi Strongest123, I've been having a rough past week or so too. It has been worse than I recall it being for years. Maybe it's the crazy weather combined with something else? (LOL the meteor showers?)

Sometimes I think it's because I've been seeing people acting rudely on what are usually polite social media platforms. It makes me disgruntled and sad. Also, I realized I was not getting good exercise every day, when I know that exercise is critical to feeling well and staying out of the bad zone.

I went to a support group (virtual for now) and was reminded of a technique that sometimes helps. Do you remember that old trick of treating the Depression or Anxiety like it's a Thing, naming it and putting it aside?

For instance, I was thinking yesterday, "the world is f'd, everything I do I keep failing, I'm not where I should be," and so on. But then I just made a point of noticing, "Hey, that's just the Depression talking." It seems easier to separate myself from the bad thoughts then. Kick that terrible houseguest out of your house.

[Strongest123 in reply to notanotter]

Thank you so much for your support

[Moongurl]

I have also had extreme anxiety for the past month and the negative thoughts and suicidal ideation were the worst I had experienced since January last year. I did have some extra stressors but this seemed like nothing I had experienced before. Constant anxiety in my body that I could not shake off. It suddenly stopped a couple of days ago and my thinking has become more positive. I don't take medication and I do not have a therapist but my insurance provides a crises support line which I used 3 times to get past the really rough moments. After being in therapy for many years I have a huge tool bag to help me and I am very self aware and self motivated to live a healthy life but sometimes I still get overwhelmed especially when I don't have any control over a situation.

I heard that the Schumann resonance was very high and wonder if that had an impact. I also believe that I pick up on emotions from other people and I know there has been a lot of anxiety around returning to school and the up tick in Covid cases. My son and DIL are second year teachers and carrying a lot of stress as are many people during these strange times.

All I know for sure is that everything changes constantly and you will feel better. Try to remember times in the past when you have felt good. You have made it this far and have probably been through some rough times so you can get through this again. Reach out to your support network and take long slow deep breaths.

[Strongest123 in reply to Moongurl]

Thank you so much. I surely do appreciate your response and support. SAMSON

[Jay2O]

Hi Strongest. Sorry you`ve been feeling out of sorts lately. Many people have been feeling uneasy what with the pandemic etc. You mention OCD - well this will certainly have affected you . OCD is tough to live with but it is treatable. Not sure if you are getting help with this. There are some great books out there on the subject and how to handle it. Am sure also some great therapists. Find out as much as you can about it. You will maybe be able to see where it came from. It`s understandable that you feel a lack of motivaton and lack of joy. Depression can do this. A kind of numbness but the brain can do this to slow us down - slow down our thinking. A kind of protection. It also points to a need for change. Try and be kind to yourself. Forgive yourself for feeling weak at times. You are human. Take care x

[Strongest123 in reply to Jay2O]

Thank you so much for your support