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Broken - A Poem

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Once something is broken,

It's never the same,

The marks and the scars,

Show the horror it's seen.

The heart is a fragile thing,

This much is true,

It beats for every moment,

Be it just or untrue.

It's strength is ever-present,

We feel it in our day to day,

It holds the hurt and pain,

And pushes blood through your veins.

The heart is powerful,

This much is true,

It sees beauty and love,

No matter what you put it through.

-ASB

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samack profile image
samack

Lovely poem. We get stronger in the places that are broken. At least ernest Hemingway said so!

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Ashquaffle in reply to samack

Thank you! I completely agree.

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Rafiki11

So very true.

I have to remind myself that sometimes broken parts grow back together stronger than they were before. I still have places on my bones that prove it’s true.

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Ashquaffle

It's no problem at all! I'm glad I can help in any way possible. Yes I did, I use poetry as my coping mechanism.

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Elisson

Thank you for sharing. I had a teacher say The word for heart in sanskrit is anahata and means unstruck.

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blueslite

That's a very good poem! I like it a lot. I write poetry but usually when I'm very depressed. I don't suffer from depression, I did in the past and only feel depressed once in a while now. Your poem, to me, is thoughtful and it feels warm and I think people can relate to it. Thank you for posting it. It made me feel good.

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Ashquaffle in reply to blueslite

Thank you! I'm glad you like it. I'm pretty much the same. Most of my poems come from those days where everything is dark and it hurts so much that I need to let it all out somehow. It's so good that you're well now! I'm happy it made you feel good and can relate to it - I've been writing for years but never really shared anywhere for fear of them being poorly written!

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blueslite in reply to Ashquaffle

yw! I'm not really well, I have panic attacks. And I have a lot of problems. Not so much health, I have a few of those too, but more situation related problems. Creativity often comes from emotional disturbances. If you look at many of the great writers and artists of the past (and present) they also had problems - depression, etc. Anyway I always felt the way you do about your poetry - unsure about the quality of our own writing. In the past, when I had friends offline I'd let some of them read one of my poems. Of course they always said they were good. Friends are like that. LOL I joined a poetry site a few years ago and posted some there. It's good to get feedback from other poets. I think you can always post something here and it would be appreciated. :) Keep writing!

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Ashquaffle in reply to blueslite

I'm sorry to hear that. It can be really difficult, especially if it's situational. I hope things get better soon! I think it's the feeling of being overwhelmed and trying to find healthy outlets you know? I can't draw well but I like to write and sing. It's really cathartic. I was always really really anxious to put it out there but I've slowly started sharing with the rest of the world. My friends would say that they love them but I could never be too sure because, as you said, that's what friends do! I might have to look into poetry sites as I know I need help and feedback to become better haha. Thank you for saying that! I'll probably keep posting on here, I love this platform and how safe it is.

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blueslite in reply to Ashquaffle

Thanks! Yes, I am overwhelmed with a lot of things. And, other than a verbally abusive niece and her husband, I'm totally alone with no one to help me. I'm 73. Writing is very helpful to those who can write and even to those who can't - it doesn't matter, if it makes you feel good or even a little better then do it. The poetry site I go to is allpoetry.com/ I think it's a friendly place, comments on my poems are encouraging and/or appreciative, never unpleasant. You could join and look around, you don't need to post anything. Not sure if you can look around the site without joining, maybe you can. And they don't bombard me with emails, which is nice. LOL I agree - HU is a good site and you can feel safe here.

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Ashquaffle in reply to blueslite

I'm really sorry to hear that. I know it's not much but if you ever need to vent then feel free to inbox me! I will definitely look up this site, I think it's time I started sharing my work properly with the world haha.

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blueslite in reply to Ashquaffle

Thanks. :) I seldom write about my problems, it's very tedious and makes me tired. But I'll keep you in mind. :) If you go to that site my username is Deazil7 if you want to look me up. I have 3 or 4 poems posted there, although I haven't posted anything in almost a year I think. There are other poetry sites, I've been to a few but I like All Poetry best. Yes, please do start sharing you work with the rest of us. The world can always use more poets. LOL

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Ashquaffle in reply to blueslite

I've just followed you and read your work. It's brilliant! You're an amazing poet. You should definitely post some more!

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blueslite in reply to Ashquaffle

Aw, thank you! You made my day. :) Is A. S. you over there? I followed you and read your poems. If that's you. LOL I hope so. I do have some other poems I could post. I'm looking forward to more from you. hahahaha :)

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Ashquaffle in reply to blueslite

You're welcome! Yes, I'm A.S haha. What did you think? You should definitely post some more! I'm going to start posting my built-up archive haha.

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blueslite in reply to Ashquaffle

I liked your poems very much. I commented on the second one. I'm so excited that you're going to start posting your poems! hahaha I lost most of my poems but I've been downsizing here and I hoped that I'd find them - and I did. LOL Not all of them though but some. There's one I especially like but I haven't found it....yet. I'm hoping. I hardly ever go to the site but now I think I'll be there more often....because of you. :) I'm really busy here with my cleanup efforts but when I take breaks I'll get over there. Thanks Ashquaffle, you put a really bright spot in my day. :)

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Ashquaffle in reply to blueslite

Thank you! I'm honestly excited myself. It's been a while since I've been excited about anything and it feels really good. I hope you find the ones you really want! It will be great to see your work. That website is brilliant. I love my friends and family but they don't necessarily understand poetry (they all did the basic english in school, never really read and stick to films and shows). It's nice to speak to kindred souls! I'm glad I could be any help at all.

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blueslite in reply to Ashquaffle

yw! Yes, it's good to get excited about something good. It is a nice website. I've been to a few but settled down there. My mother dabbled in poetry and others in my immediate family have written on different types of subjects - technical or newspaper stuff, political too I think. But it's true - it's nice to talk with those who share the writing bug. You were a help to me today. I'm very down lately, I don't see any way out of my problems so reading your comments (here) and your poetry gave me a much needed lift. And your comment on my poem - so nice! :) ty!

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blueslite in reply to Ashquaffle

I just went over there and saw the other comments on your poem "The protector" - wow! You certainly made a grand entrance to the site! I have a big smile on my face now. I'm really happy with those comments, so nice. I'm happy for you. :) And I'm so glad you posted there!

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Ashquaffle in reply to blueslite

I'm really happy I could help you, even if only in a small way! Thank you! I wrote "The Protector" for my mum on mother's day last year I believe. She loved it!

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blueslite in reply to Ashquaffle

Every little bit helps. Each time I smile I know that at least a few of those happy little peptides known as endorphins are released, trying to make me feel good again. LOL I can see why your mum loved that poem. It's so beautiful and warm, comforting. I was surprised to see that you wrote it for your mum - last night I was going through some of my poems and I came across one I had written for my mother. LOL I had forgotten all about it, it was a birthday poem.

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Ashquaffle in reply to blueslite

I bet that must have been a whirlwind of emotions when you saw the poem you wrote for her birthday. I hope you're keeping well!

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CatsamazeADAA Volunteer in reply to blueslite

Hi blueslite. I agree with you and everyone regarding the poem. It’s great. But something else you wrote struck me. You said that you don’t suffer from depression except maybe once in awhile. But that you did in the past. So for you, depression presumably had a big impact in your past but it hasn’t become the ink stain on your shirt that will always be there long after it got there in the first place, no matter how clean the rest of the shirt has gotten since. For some of us the worst of depression really is in the past but it’s still a stain on the present that we carry around with us. And we don’t realize that we’re doing it. Or more importantly that we don’t have to do it. You seem to have left it back there. That was then and this is now. It was just a few words in your post but I’m inspired by them.

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blueslite in reply to Catsamaze

Hello. :) Well, I was depressed and also had severe insomnia. The depression started in the '80s but had been building up for some time and one day, after some years of being depressed, I reached the point of despair, which is a horrible feeling - that black bottomless pit you fall into and there's no help, no way out....ever. The insomnia began in the late '60s and lasted for about 20 years. Then one day it just went away. The depression left sometime in the '90s but was replaced with other problems. Although for years afterward I was always afraid of slipping and falling back down again. I also felt that there was another me inside my head that was determined to destroy me. That's probably because I was always at odds with myself and things I did - bad decisions - seemed to be self destructive. Most of us make decisions based on the thought that it's the best decision. For me, I was usually wrong on that. But that fear went away too eventually and, typically, was replaced with other problems. And now I'm overwhelmed with problems, both health and situational, that seem to have no solutions. "What a long, strange trip it's been." Jerry Garcia 1970

I'm glad I said something that inspired you. To me that's a great compliment. Thank you. :) Sometimes I wonder why, with all the problems I have now, I'm not depressed again. Then I think maybe I am but it's a different type of depression. Or maybe I'm so used to being unhappy that's it's just a way of life that I've gotten used to. I'm glad though, that I've never experienced the depression I had in the long ago past. I truly can sympathize with anyone who suffers from it or those who still have that "stain" that won't go away. Yes, that was then, this is now. One has to move into the present and really believe that it will be okay now.

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CatsamazeADAA Volunteer in reply to blueslite

Thanks for eloquent response. You clearly have great insight into yourself and in general. However much other things are causing you pain right now, and I'm sorry you are having to deal with that, you have many positive attributes that nothing and nobody can take away. What inspires me about you is that you've moved on from the severe depression and insomnia that you had for so long. You may have other different challenges now but you haven't dragged the depression and insomnia into the present. So it makes me wonder about myself........how much of the pain I'm feeling now is in the present and how much is from the past? However much is from the past...or should I say IN the past.....and believe me there's some.....I don't have to let detract from my life now. What I'm truly wrestling with in the present is more than enough. I want to leave the past there. That's what you clarified for me. And I thank you for it.

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blueslite in reply to Catsamaze

yw! I thought I was going on too much, it's a long reply. I have a problem being concise - it would probably take me 500 words or more to explain how to fold a piece of paper in half. LOL Insight into myself - well, I've lived with myself long enough so I should know by now what I'm like, warts and all. LOL It's unfortunate that most of my problems are my own fault caused by bad decisions in the past. I'm very self-critical so it's nice to hear something good about myself. Thanks for that. :) I don't think I consciously moved on from the depression, it's just that other problems came up and maybe they were enough of a distraction to wipe out the depression. I had to focus on other things. I was much younger then, I had a busy life and a job. I was concentrating on promotions every few years and also worked a lot of overtime. The insomnia - I don't know, it just disappeared. hahaha

Maybe you should focus on the present more, try to leave the past where it belongs - in the past. I know, easier said than done and you probably do that already. For years I've tried to find out how to just "let it go" as many people have told me I should. I still can't let things go but at my age my memory isn't great so it works in my favor sometimes - I don't let things go I just forget them. LOL Think about the present, all the good things in your life now and realize that the past can't hurt you, it's gone. Or think only about the good things from your past. I wish I had something really helpful to tell you. Fear can be a great destroyer. Yes, I went back and read one of your older posts. :) When I first started having panic attacks I noticed that as soon as I had a symptom - shallow breathing, lightheadedness, fluttering heart etc. I would suddenly be overcome by a feeling of extreme fear and then the physical symptoms would get worse. I'd read that you shouldn't fight the fear, it will only get worse. So I attempted to control it instead. A couple of years ago, as soon as I felt a symptom I immediately told myself "It's just a panic attack. It's just a panic attack." I kept repeating it until the symptom went away. It took a little while (a week or two maybe) but it worked. I also found some videos on youtube that helped immensely. If you're interested do a search for David Daish, his videos have helped many according to the comments he got. And I found them to be the best videos for me. Now I take herbal supplements 2-3 times a day and they prevent the panic attacks.

I'm glad that what I said in my other reply was helpful to you. yw!

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CatsamazeADAA Volunteer in reply to blueslite

Thanks for the suggestions, blueslite :)

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blueslite in reply to Catsamaze

yw!

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TaurusLady

Hi Ashquaffle,

What a nice poem!

Thank you for sharing xx

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Ashquaffle in reply to TaurusLady

Thank you!xx

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I_Hate_Me_2

Read the poems you’ve put up on here. You write so well. Very powerful and so easy to relate to.

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Ashquaffle in reply to I_Hate_Me_2

Thank you so much!☺️

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