THE POEM....MY SOULMATE NEVER HEARD

[Cocoon3]

I wrote this poem while my life-sister-friend (of 29 years) SOULMATE—- was suddenly in ICU. I was going to read it to her when she moved to her own hospital room... But, that day never came (she died 4 days later), January 20, 2018.

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I thank God for the day we 1st met,

We had no idea what beautiful plan

God had for us yet.

So many laughs, jokes & fun,

All still so many Goals still yet to be done.

Over Half of my Lifetime has been spent with You,

Thats when u know u have a Friend that will always be true.

We have been joined together as Siamese Twins,

And should have received a ‘Loyal Award’, as Military does, in the Shape of a Pin.

We still had plenty things on our Bucket Lists to do,

But God needed you, as an Angel, to help make Miracles Come True.

When I 1st started writing this Poem, I had no idea how it would end,

Nor know how much pain it is to loose your most important Friend.

My Family and Friends fell in love with you instantly,

That meant you were permanently placed on our Family Tree.

As far as your three children they can always come to me,

For as long as I live, that will always be.

I will watch for your “Signs”, whether you come as a bird or a butterfly,

And I will know that is you, flying high in the sky.

You will never hear the Words ‘Good Bye ‘ from me,

Because you are half of my heart and always will be.

Written By: R. Cocoon

[_amabelizzario]

What an amazing poem and gesture of love. It brought tears to my eyes, not of sadness, but of how much love I can feel reading it. Thank you for sharing. This shows what truly friendship can be like. I'm sorry for your loss I'm sure she was an incredible person.

[Cocoon3 in reply to _amabelizzario]

Awww Thank You So Much !!

She was incredible !! She was REAL !!!

it was a privilege to have had her in my life and we lived a life full throttle & lived for the moment & we were SO proud to be known as the 2 Certified Crazy Fools ( we would gladly say we even have papers to prove it) .. 🤣🤣😂😂

here’s an example of what one of our days might consist of : imagine that you are grocery shopping and you hear 2 women talking to each other at the end of the aisle that you are on, & one says (real serious) .... I’m Telling you, if you do that one more time, Im gonna meet you outside in the parking lot, you hear me ? ....And then you hear the other woman say (in A serious tone : really??..well bring it on sister, you and your scrawny ass ! HOW WOULD YOU REACT ? 🤣😂🤣 WHAT WOULD YOU DO ?

🤣🤣😂 stop in your tracks & turn the other way, or pretend you didn’t hear them but hang around to see what’s going to happen next ?

🤣🤣 ... and then the next words that are spoken by one of these women is “so, what’s the next item on “our” grocery list ? HAHA !!

[ People would just lose it...cracking up at us !]

We loved it ! We shared pain, loss, abandonment, rescuing, happiness, miracles & saving each other from the painful grips of this world ] But, I understand why, ( I hate it but I understand it).... why we lived life full throttle ...... because we had to fit a lifetime of love and memories into 29 years and we did it !! Our hopes of growing old together & beating each other up with our walking canes....were only dreams, that will never come true. there will never be another as her. And actually, what really hurts me lately is that “not one”, not 1 so-called loved one ( Family or friend) has attempted to even compensate some of this so apparent voided time on my hands, not one in 11 months - WOW, huh ? Now I have reached out to people and I’m the one thats suffering but when I reach, no one grabbed a hold..... everybody’s too busy in their own little world .

Every weekend she came over and my husband of 6 yrs called her...his 2nd wife and he seemed to have love for her because I loved her ..but now when I speak her name, it’s like a foreign language, like she never existed, his face looks baffled & I know everyone reacts differently to grief but if my own personal belief or reaction to something is different from another’s but I can tell that that person is in pain or sad, I let them know...that I am there for them and show comfort regardless of what I may believe but not here .....not my husband. It’s like don’t speak her name - And to me why I even love someone at all, if once they pass away, you do not speak of them or think of them (u just sort of brush their memory under a rug ), to me that sends a message that, that person really did not mean that much to you. This is just my opinion & how I feel. And you know, It’s like i can still feel her ( I mean she was a part of every aspect of my life for so many years) we knew each other‘s thoughts and how the other one even felt, before we would even talk to each other, to even know the other was feeling ill, sad or happy -we already knew ! ••BUT NOW, i’m trying to adjust to my new world— quiet, silent with tension in the air & there is no more laughter no more smiles.

[Cocoon3 in reply to _amabelizzario]

& sorry that my reply is so long I just let the words flow

[_amabelizzario in reply to Cocoon3]

Don't apologize at all. I loved reading every single piece of it. This partnership was so much fun. It looks like a movie, because it's like it was perfectly ploted. What amazing gift this friendship must have been. It's so amazing that you can talk so open about it and in a fun way. Loss is hard, but I'm with you that we shouldn't act like the person never existed, in fact we should talk even more because it means on her time here she left a big impression that changed lives and special people like her should never be forgotten.

I'm sorry your family didn't reach out. As you said people are lost in their own worlds and it's hard to reach them out. I feel the same with my family. But, I try to understand it.

I don't know if it helps but I would love to read more about your adventures together. Please post more crazy moments here haha.

I wish you all the best.

[Cocoon3 in reply to _amabelizzario]

LOL..... thank you you made me smile !! 😁 there is no other as her “anywhere” and never will be... It would be an honor to share more stories, adventures, crazy crap , Road trips etc. ... it VERY much helps me & entertains others— nothing wrong with that picture at all 💕 thank you !! And, im so HAPPY that you are interested in our beautiful sister/friendship ... i’ve truly thought about writing a book - till next time 😊

[Catwoman2018]

That is so beautiful, thank you for sharing with us. Sending you hugs, always treasure your happy memories. xx

[Cocoon3 in reply to Catwoman2018]

Thank you sooo much!!!!

Y’all are actually HELPING ME MORE THAN ANYONE IN MY LIFE..