I’m back today.

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

I was here for a while a few years ago. Met the nicest people. I started really working on myself. I ended up not getting on here and focusing on me for a while. In a lot of ways I’m doing so much better. In some I’m not. I feel better but recognize things that mean I’m not as good as I think. I lost my beloved Tater Tot. (Dachshund) It rocked my world after 16 years. Now I have 2 dogs. Chihuahua and another chihuahua mix puppy I recently got. They live in my lap. I rarely ever go out unless I have to because I’m very happy sitting here with my sweet babies. Best medicine ever! I have no desire to go anywhere. Fixing my house up nice and taking pride in that. My mom had a bad fall and I stayed with her almost 2 months nursing her back to health. It was awful. I missed my dogs and couldn’t sleep well but would always help my mom. Her health is deteriorating and that scares me. I’m a mommas girl. Also got custody of my niece. She was abused living with her father then he passed away. She went to her mother but that was a bad situation. Her mom is now in jail for murder. Totally unrelated. Her mom is my sister. We used to be very close until I got her daughter she never raised anyway. Now this. That’s been hard. My niece turned 18 and moved in with her boyfriend. My son age 26 that was my miracle baby and lived with me his whole life just moved several states away with his dog who had also been here for 4 years that I also loved dearly. So now I have a very empty nest. It’s so quiet. Thank God for my dogs. I had to get Charlie a playmate after my son moved out with his. Don’t get me wrong I’m so proud of him becoming a man and doing his thing! It’s just hard not having him here and not sure when I’ll be able to take that trip to see him. My father also died. We weren’t real close but he was my father. All those things happened all at once. I’m all shook up as Elvis would say. I’m doing okay though. I cried a lot around that time. It’s been a month and I can see the light of day. I just only want to be with my dogs. Gotta do something to keep from falling hard back into depression. They make me happy though. It’s just been a hard year. I know I’ll be okay. I talk to my son or text daily so it’s not so bad he’s not here. Well it helps. Moms getting better from accident so now it’s just regular progression of her heart disease and aging which we’re managing the best we can. Tried to add picture of my “medicine” below. They really keep me going. I haven’t fallen off the face of the planet though and will continue self care when I get my wits about me completely. Can that ever really be done? I’m managing. I think better than before. I find it’s harder to feel better sometimes for me if I’m constantly focused on feeling bad. So I took a break. I’m doing okay though.

[Agora1]

Tinkerbell x Welcome back. Yes, I'm still here lolI'm sorry about your losses. You've really had a lot of changes going

on in the time you were gone but I'm glad you found time to work on

yourself. I'm glad you thought of coming back to your virtual home again.

This is your safe comfortable place to come and get the support you need

going forward on a new path.

Happy that you are back with us. Wishing you well xx

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell in reply to Agora1]

Do good to hear from you!!! You were one of my biggest helpers! Glad your still at it! I’m not sure what I need. It’s just been rough but it’s stabling out. I just got an email from health unlocked so I decided to check in.

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell in reply to Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

So not do. Lol

[Agora1 in reply to Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

Hang on Tinkerbell, I'm glad you are here with us. New people, new support, new found hope xx

[Hidden]

Your dogs are adorable, Hopeful-Tinkerbell, it is easy to see why they mean the world to you. I am fairly new here, but I would like to say welcome back to this amazing community. 🌿

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell in reply to Hidden]

Thank you! I always say dogs are the best medicine!

[Fruitsofspirit]

You are doing good. U have taken on so much. Love about your dogs. we have 4 one big 3 Chihuahua mix. I use to hate Chihuahua but my best friend got me one for my birthday few years back once it crawl under the covers (all them) blankets and lay on me I was in love. Had to have more than one. lololol . I'm still looking for a fawn, blonde, white for me. They all love my husband, goes every where with him. Sending healing love and prayers and hugs

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell in reply to Fruitsofspirit]

I never thought I wanted a chihuahua either. Then I got a chiweenie. She passed away but was amazing. Looking for another I found my Charlie. He is pure bred. Love of my life. They get so attached you can’t help but love them. Their beautiful spunky loving personalities warm my hear. Chihuahua love for life now! My white puppy is Heinz 57 dog. Maltese, min pin, chihuahua and pit bull mixed. Odd combination but so precious. Supposed to be 20 pounds full grown. She’s just as attached to me as Charlie. Who needs to go to the bathroom alone anyway right? It’s like they imprint on you like wolves. I’m their human. They like the rest of my family a lot but they are mine for sure. They live in my lap or snuggled up to me while I’m sleeping unless I’m up and then they are my little shadows. I wouldn’t have it any other way though.

[Fruitsofspirit]

Even though they are his dogs. They r great, smart, small enough for me to be able to pick up. They do give me love in the morning 3 sec. 😘 But I hope to get one for me. He won't be allowed to touch her or him. Glad you are back

[Roxylox]

Loved reading your story, sounds sad at times. Your two dogs are beautiful . Don't know how I'll be when mine passes on , she's a 9 year old Collie.

You must still be busy, with your Mom. As it stands , I still have a busy house but our youngest will be going to college in another 12 months, the we will have that empty nest too, most of the time anyhow. Love your Username by the way!

[DodgeDhanda]

Not gonna lie ur dogs are beautiful, my daughter has a chihuahua & she is brilliant we rescued her just before lockdown started here in March 2020 & I can say she saved me from harming my self as my brain started to turn in on itself but the hugs & kisses she gave me , had me go back & do what I need to do for me to have a good day & now everyday I wake up I go through my routines & mantras to have myself a good day & u probably just put ur systems on the back burner & just need them to come back to the front & do their thing .

[kenster1]

hi welcome back it`s been some time since you`ve been here wondered if you had been ok.

[ChristFollower]

I have no words of wisdom except to say you are not alone. My heart goes out to you for all you're going through. Colleen Love your pups picture too!

[melbrown]

Welcome back Tinkerbell 🧚‍♀️💖

[Jay2O]

Great to have you with us again. I do think our pets can be the best of medicines - as can treating ourselves to vanilla ice creams on an evening! Some things can seem to hit us all at once and we wonder if we will cope. We never got any training back in school. Yet deal with things we must. Time will be your healer as you come to adjust more. Allow your grief to come out and you will recover much faster. You`ve been doing amazingly well up to press. We are allowed to have our weak days. It helps us be strong. Bad times won`t be forever. Love the photo of your dogs. Am guessing everyone went "Awe" when they saw it! Take care Tinks x

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell in reply to Jay2O]

My babies are for sure the best medicine ever. Ice cream is good too! I’m doing okay. Things hit me all at once but are getting much better now for what it is. Thank you!

[Shadowfax1973]

Good to hear you are going okay. 💕