Loss of best friend, the final straw !

[villeneuve1979]

I have suffered from clinical depression and high levels of anxiety for over 30 years. The treatment for my condition consists of pregrabalin for the anxiety, and paroxetine for the depression. Since March 2020 and the start of the first lockdown, I have developed a specific health anxiety which has resulted in an unhealthy fixation with a host of physical symptoms from shortness of breath and chest pain to testicular pain. Investigations, x-rays and ultrasounds never revealed anything sinister, but the anxiety over my physical health as well as my mental health remains. I have also endured dental pain, that in the absence of any pathology in any of my teeth, has led to a diagnosis of a-typical odontalgia, (a form of neuropathic pain that affects one or a number of teeth.)

I found out last night that my ex partner has started seeing someone which I feel devastated about. Despite the end of our romantic relationship in 2018, we had remained close and had been in a bubble throughout 3 lockdowns, which allowed us to see each other 3 of 4 times a week between Mar 2020 and May 2021. I feel as though I'velost her all over again and my best friend too ! I am desolate that I wont be able lto share similar amounts of time together. She has to move on, and had to courage to tell me face to face. I behaved with less dignity than I should have ,despite hurting like hell.I was greatly struggling before I find out last night, and I'm afraid it has brought on strong suicidal feelings. I long to be in a serious stable long-term relationship, but my precarious mental health makes me wonder whether it it is fair to ever try dating again.

Thanks for reading this peice, good people. Does anybody out there resonate with any of the above ?

[Chase888]

I am so sorry about your relationship ending. The truth is to never rely on anyone to be everything to you.

My boyfriend died 1st April 2020 and I haven't been right since.

We have to plod on the best way we can though its not easy.

I have nothing against online dating

I met 3 men but was bored and the 3rd guy I couldn't deal with because he wanted my uncle out the way.

Fast forward my uncle Charlie died and I was with a guy for 8years until I found him dead.

There are people out there who want a relationship so don't give up.

Keep posting

[jo0267]

HiI’m so sorry to hear you are finding life tough. This pandemic has brought out the best and worst in people. We just need to be kinder to each other and more importantly to ourselves.

It isn’t easy in normal times to find the perfect partner but in this pandemic it’s even harder. Don’t beat yourself up over it.

Ask for some talking therapy and if you think you need more anti-depressant, have a review with someone at your GP surgery.

Now may not be the right time to change drugs. Although I did that quite easily in 2018.

More important for you is to be gentle with yourself. Reach out to friends and family. You may have been grinding your teeth at night (anxiety can do that) and that might be what you are experiencing. There are all sorts of things which might help - try Genie Gel from the pharmacy.

Good luck, be kind to yourself and this will pass.

Take care