(trigger warning) I am so on the edge I feel defeated & worn

[secrets22]

Its been 16 months of unbelievable torment.

I have had as much torment as i can stand,and i just dont want to be here anymore.

It is subtle bullying on a grand scale,from tenants and so called friends, making snide remarks and ceaseless tittle tattle full of untruths,these people are gossip personified,and i cant help being a sensitive guy,i can get desperately hurt even though i put on a brave demeaner,but we reach a point where we cannot cope anymore.

This house i live in i once adored,but it has become an albatross around my neck and no longer i consider it my home.When i go out i dont want to come home,and the gloom descends on me like a dark cloud the nearer i get to my home.

These people would never have said things about my late partner David that they say about me.

I honestly think people know who they can bully, and i have been bullied from childhood.

Unfortunately i cannot even think of selling up as the estate is nowhere near to completion,and whether i can weather the storm much longer i'm not sure.

[Hb2003]

I’m so sorry that your dealing with this hopefully you will move soon to a kinder place . I also want to send my condolences and sympathy’s to you. I can relate to what your going through . This happened to me at school and sadly here

[Catsamaze ADAA Volunteer]

Home should be a refuge but for you and too many others it is anything but. I am sorry you are going through this. The ultimate refuge is in a place in ourselves that no slings and arrows or bullying can touch. It’s there right now. Hoping we can all find it and go there when we need to.

[Broken1971]

Hang in there. I'm sorry you're going through this. There has to be a way that you can take back your place. You shouldn't have to feel that way in your own home. At least try to remember that these are small people and that what they say and do is because of their own faults and weaknesses. You are better than them.

Sorry about your loss. I hope you can find the peace you deserve. We're here for you!